Halls of the Dark Muse

I've addressed my bipolar tendencies in my blog...I really found that I am not going to fear it, and be open about it. Its been helpful. Therapeutic maybe.

Perhaps Dark Muse a visit to a psychiatrist might help. You've mentioned somewhere you live a hermit sort of life. If there is no one to look after you, how do you know if the mania is damaging to you? If medical help will prevent something from getting worst, then that's a good thing. I would recommend you have yourself checked out. It couldn't hurt. Perhaps it's nothing. People scoff at mental health issues as if it's just something to cope with. But you know it's no different than a heart condition that requires attention. You wouldn't ignore your heart I assume, so why would you ignore your mind? I hope that helps. You're in my thoughts.

I think Virgil says some wise things here. Mental health issues are indeed STILL misunderstood. Even the most caring people, sometimes the ones closest to us say (or at least think) things like 'get over it' and that is impossible! It is much more complex than just getting over it. My youngest son was recently diagnosed. And like B-Mental says, be open about it. If you don't have someone to talk to, let it all hang out here. I can see you have friends here who care and understand. Blessings to you.

Everyone here is quite correct - you need to seek an official diagnosis from a mental health professional. You say it's mania, but your post here gives me the impression you're in a depression. Please see someone. In the meantime (and along with it), post your thoughts here. I'm BP too, but I try to not let my life be defined by it.

I thank you all for your supportive comments, and well I have had this for over 10 years and I guess you could say I do have something of a mild case of it, as unlike really sever depression, it does not prevent me from funtioning in my daily life, I do have my really down moments at times but they pass and part of it right now is I have been dealing with stress that I have been putting upon myself becasue things are not the way I want them right now, and I know I need to make some changes to achive what I want.

I do have someone I can confide in, but I have tendencies to want to protect him, as he is dealing with some stressful issues in his own life right now, that last thing I want is him thinking he has to worry about me on top of that.

I deal with depression on a fairly regular basis but it usually takes the form of playing the what if game or why did I do that when I knew better and even had friends warn me of the consequences. I can get on the last nerve r-e-a-l easy so you're not alone even if all the evidence says otherwise. I would confide in your friend simply because he IS your friend and sometimes it helps to think about other's needs for a change. Hope this helps. Rich

Dark, the good people below have said some very helpful things, and I cannot add anything to what already has been brought up. Except to say that you are in my thoughts too. Take care, Kizzo

Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you.

Thank you, and once more thanks to everyone else who responded. I am doing better now and I appericate all of your thoughts and concern.