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Fellowship of Litnetters
by , 12-10-2007 at 12:10 AM (4820 Views)
This date last year I created the second blog entry which became the very first posted.
A year later it appears I have learned precious little to enhance the appearance of the blog.
What a difference one year can make. I had been waffling on staying on board. Comment responses went mainly ignored or I felt praised when I only saw my own shallowness.
This was never about writing to me. It was a way to ever so slowly put an identity out there that would acknowledge the warts but NOT glorify the sins. Other then occasionally wanting to bring a flame thrower to all the egos running rampant in the religious forums I'm generally at peace here. Only a couple of litnetters grate on me but I rarely acknowledge them and I'm definitely below their radar.
What the blog has come to mean to me other then a history of the Mtpspur life and how he came to be is still what it started as. Therapy for the soul.
I have been meaning to print all the entries into a notebook for a sort of legacy for my children on the hopes that some day they might like to know more about dear old dad other then that he loved the Avengers comics and Batman. I'm convinced the three guttersnipes would know Captain Blood is a favorite fictional novel but suspect only one of them with a ten dollar bill at stake could tell me who wrote him. Haggard still seems a mystery to them.
The first few months were dicey. The ego was constantly getting in the way. Entrys that I thought would charm and delight and get me Logos private phone number largely went ignored. It was with a bit of dismay that entries on the deaths of real people elicited little in the way of pain and outrage. Grace86 was most helpful at that time.
I believe the turning point for me was relating the tale of the long suffering wife and I getting married. Comments became more frequent and there seemed to be a warmth involved in them. I began to read other blogs and start to think of the Litnetters beyond their reading likes and dislikes. I liked the quiet dignity most here have and the ability to embrace almost anyone at face value.
I began to actually (and Logos warned this would happen but I was a doulting Thomas) have friendships here. Grace86 will always have the honor of being the first person I carried on a dialogue with. There have been others. Some are no longer here. There is one blogger I tried my best to make her stay but there is another who I feel responsible for hastening their departure and for her I feel a loss and no its not who you think. That one made her choice my conscience there is clean but I no longer PM using the two PMs without an answer rule- a third is harassment and lets not go there please.
I began getting PMs from people. Stupidly I would erase them and forget their real names. Names are precious and each of us is of value and should be honored. I now have a small but growing list of first names in the library. Oddly there are only two of you who I actually know the real names of and about four that know mine. Two know precisely where I live. My circle is growing and my affection for this site is becoming a cherished habit.
There are the times when ho-hum more poetry I can't figure out and why is 1984 so popular anyway? But overall there is a sense of finding a small niche where I can safely be myself and not be condemmed thereby.
And oddly enough liked yet alone cared about!!??
It's been a nice first year sharing with Litnet and I hope to continue as the Lord allows me life.
Then as now this blog is dedicated to the beloved Logos. With special mention (and I know I've missed a few: Grace86, Andave Ya, Pendragon, Mchockenberry, KizPaws, B-Mental, Mahuri, Virgil, Captain Pike, Grayfoxdown, Kathcf, Idril, and most especially the well regarded Countess who is a woman among women and I wish her book could get published that others should see her fire.
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