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I'm going threw another Peter Pan sindrone (or however you spell it) hmmm... i think this is my third time the last couple of months. First time was so joyus! (don't know why, but it was) but the second time was very painful... i realized that almost everything that happened in the book and movie shall never happen to me... never how very long that seems not to have.... any way, sorry, my mind is so far in the clouds i'm afraid to look down at the moment. of course listening to this kind of music doesn't help... http://youtube.com/watch?v=DYmdlhLRQKY. and watching it! ha, no wonder i have issues!

i have this song on my ipod, http://youtube.com/watch?v=Yea45vX1Lcg, and everytime i hear it, my heart aches. i don't know why, but it does. sometimes i don't think i should listen to it. but low, every night what can you hear? the song... "My Heart Will Go On." every night...

oh, i must tell you! in two weeks is my choirs recital! and i get to get a new dress, and my mom is debating if i can ware make up... if i can, this will be the first time and i'm so excited! one of my friends is coming, i have to invite bulletproof and andya (i have the invitation and'll give 'em to you on sunday), then i must send it out to another family... but the only thing i'm dreading is inviting Jo... i really want to, but i'm chicken to do so. but what is almost worse then asking him and giving him the invitations is asking my parents... ugh! not looking forward to this. and what tops that situation off is, well, the recital is on the same night as our biblestudy, so Jo parents couldn't take him (his dad leads the biblestudy). oh, i don't know, maybe i should just blow the whole thing over... but i really want him to go!!!! life, you can be very cruel!:crash:

well, anyway, i'll let you know how that went. i must be getting off, school and cleaning call. but before i leave i must let you know that i'm working on another book. it is set sometime in the early 20th century. yeah, you know, i'll tell ya'll more later 'cause i can't think strait, as i said my head's in the clouds, my heart is aching in the pit of my stomach and fate is having fun with teenage emotions. they are cruel, are they not? one minute i'm indepentent of the world; next i just want to cry my heart out for some unknow reason that i want to see but am afraid to do so and search. ok i must go... talk more later! -argetlam

Life is hard, you can be harder.