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Hello. I just wanted to blog, share some things about my life in opennness and intimacy, with complete strangers, as seems such a natural thing to do! I just got a call from the woman I was writing about before, we had a long talk and I thought we connected very well. I was so happy to hear from her. What else is going on is not much, and it's rather banal. I'm going to go visit my best friends in Lawrence this weekend, which will be a blissful weekend. I've been studying some more- which can always be dangerous- and I've learned some great things.

I've been reading three different books the last few days; [I]Drinking from the Mountain Stream[/I], [I]The Lone Samurai[/I] and [I]The Call of Cthulu and Other Weird Stories[/I], by H.P. Lovecraft. The first is about the life of Milarepa and his songs, the second is about Miyamoto Musashi, a biography of him; and the third is a collection of fiction stories. They've all together opened up new ideas of the imagination for me. The songs of Mila are uncomparable with anything I've read before. I identify with him because I've done a little of the practice he has, which is so powerful and transforming. It comes down always to non-attachment, which is very simple but also communicates a very deep wisdom. The practice purifies and transforms; it's something that is so true, but it is dangerous because it brings great sensitivity.

There are lots of people who want the good of all, who want the elimination of suffering for all. Mila often says "how can I bear the suffering of all these beings, who have been my mother?" or "Yogi, how can you bear it?" Last night I had the feeling that there was something which was coming for me; that enlightenment was going to happen. I feel this is going to happen, to me, and to others; as there is a force which will transform me and then others. Others here have talked about inspiration, and I've also been inspired. Mostly by Mila, but also by the fiction of Lovecraft, who is a good writer. I don't know if I'll write fiction stories or poems or songs, or none of them, but I have the idea or imagining of songs I could write, or possibly stories, which would be flawless. There is something flawless, I know it; the basis, as Mila says. I know that words can be crafted into flawless songs; I've seen them in the songs of Mila. I know I'm a good poet who can also create inspiring songs; this is inspiring to me, but the basis must be trust in the mind, which it is.

The first time I read about Mila I was impressed but later I had experiences which made me better able to appreciate him. Now I know that the first impressions were not as true as what I see now; and I can only wonder if my future impressions will be fuller.

I know in all likelihood it'll all be lost, but I wish to write some songs. Not about liberation, which many of Mila's songs are about, but perhaps something which is more traditional poetry. Something like Shelley. I don't know. I'm supposed to email my friend with a poem or poems, so I should write something new for that. I will, later.