Om

"LETTER TO C., WRITTEN IN A ROOM WITH NO MIRRORS"

Dear C.,
I'm writing to you now completely by accident; only because I saw the letter to you on the page before this.
I'm rewriting this now, and it's not like the letters I've written before. I wanted to share a lot of other things with you.
Lately I've been experiencing very unusual and incredible sensations. It's a veritable wonderland in my mind! The things I am experiencing are wonderful but unexplainable; profound and brilliant, yet fleeting, I forget them. They are snapshots, moments, sometimes feelings of happiness, or love; they are incredible.
Of paramount importance to the path I am taking is that I am not attached to senses or thought- freedom of the mind is essential.

I could end this here. To explain without getting philosophical, I do indeed desire happiness, and these feelings, but what is higher is learning, being, helping. The most important thing I learned from enlightenment how to transform myself and break through reality. I think the new world before me might have been opened by this. And now, with this, I have no doubts, but complete faith in my enlightened mind, and I can walk with impunity about the wonderland of dharma.

What I long for is the time when the new ways which have brought these feelings to me themselves are passed by and forgotten; absorbed and transcended- these things being deep-breathing, feeling, clarity or sensitivity, freedom from thoughts, and joy. There will come the time when these are passed by. What will come after this letter I can only imagine!!!

So nothing bad will come of it. I can see it all now because I'm free of it! How much bliss- yet it doesn't disturb me. Like I say it isn't happiness so much I'm after as learning, being, and helping. I don't chase after these new feelings, but I am overcome by them. It isn't that they make me always happy, it is that with a free mind, I feel safer and more at peace, and I'm able to see it all, and I'm not disturbed by any passing feeling.

This is quite different from the usual, as you will agree. Yet what will come after this! What is music, m'love!!! Met-a-physical...

I want to write a letter to a friend, whom I love; or maybe I never will, but for now I'm writing to you- I know this is a letter to C.