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Autumn Again

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Autumn Again

The maple tree in front of my neighbor’s home
divides in two like Siamese Twins
bound at the hip.

Its leaves have turned early again,
crusted red like dried, crusted tomato sauce-
or is it blood-- pinned to their stems,
nailed to the wood.

The summer air has ended and
the cool scent of autumn smacks you in the face.
Again. Enough to topple you over.

Neighbors go about their motions,
school has started,
baseball winds towards its Series,
talk of November elections cross the radio waves,
football has kicked off again,
all beneath a sky so blue it reminds you
of a little girl’s iris.

I enter my car, parked in front of my house,
ready to go to work.

A red leaf comes off the tree—
the first of the year, perhaps-
drifts down floats like a slip of paper while suddenly
two morning jays, blue and white tipped,
sweep across the street.
Their peevish caws proclaim the end of summer,
the end of little league and girls soccer,
reclaiming dog days for the approaching equinox.

Such demonstrates ballistic coefficients,
a floating leaf, a swooping bird.
I watch this liturgy as I hang from
turning the ignition.

There was a night I slept in the car
in some parking lot, chilled by the northern nip
unable to return home.
They barred the city shut.
I had a blanket in the trunk for such emergencies
and I took it out and threw it over me and
pitched the seat back almost to a bed and
listened to the radio all night.
The sirens that had been blaring all day
finally stopped, and the crickets still alive
began their evening prayers,
unable to distinguish autumn air from crumbled dust
that floated and sooted all our homes,
all our clothes, all our lungs.

I turn the ignition, the motor crackles,
and I almost put the car in drive when another
leaf, this one still green but a frozen green,
like it had turned to stone, floats down and lays
beside the red one.

This is the kairotic moment,
when the curdled leaf falls with a plop to the ground,
the thump circling inside the cavity of my head.
I turn the ignition off and decide to walk around
the block.

I pass Mr. Sackman’s house.
His son lost his life a few years ago, and
loses it again at the end of every summer
rushing up a staircase to afflict a fire
started by a man no one around here ever heard of
and lived half a world away.

The leaves around the block
had also turned and the nails
that pinned them had been yanked or reaped,
obelisks in the mind giving way

leaves scorched red by zipping aero planes
which blasted into towers.

The leaves around me, dozens now,
are falling like three thousand bodies
coming down again.
This was my poem in the autumn poetry contest. Thanks to all who voted for me. Please comment in the thread I've set up. http://www.online-literature.com/forums/showthread.php?t=29671.
I do have to make a change. The true biographical event, sleeping in my car in some parking lot in Perth Amboy New Jeersey that night of 9/11, that I mention has an inaccuracy in it. I did sleep in the car because the city was closed off completely, but I realized after I submitted the poem that I did not "listened to the radio all night." The radio went dead when the tower with the antenae collasped and no one had any radio at least until the next day. I'll have to fix that.
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  1. Shalot's Avatar
    That movie World Trade Center was on yesterday and I watched it. I remember that day - hardly anyone went to class - I went because I didn't want to stay home. My mom called and asked "what's going on?"

    I remember watching the news coverage of it from New York City. One reporter was talking about all the paper that was falling from the towers and she held a piece of paper up to the camera and was talking about all the paper and my dad goes "Aw, get her off - someone pull the plug on her." Shortly thereafter, they cut to some other coverage.

    We went to a prayer service that day. I can't imagine what it would have been like to live there, or to have to sleep in the car because of it.
  2. 's Avatar
    Hi Virgil - it's a good poem, excellent actually. I have not commented on the forum as I'm finding it difficult not to slip into political commentary, and run the risk of offending people. It was a horrific act, and there's no getting away from that, but horrific acts have gone on before, have gone on since, and are still going on. And there I go, so I'm stopping myself. It's a fine poem Virgil, and a worthy winner.
  3. Virgil's Avatar
    Thanks Fifth. I didn't think I had anything political in the poem. In fact i purged two lines from an earlier draft that, while not overtly political, could have been construed as touching on the politics.
  4. Virgil's Avatar
    Shalot, it was a day that one can never forget. I was going to put this in the thread granny had started on where one was on Sept 11th, but for some reason it got merged and i don't quite know why into a thread i had started last year on commemorating the day. And so I don't quite know how appropriate where it is for me to say where I was on that day. So I'll say it here. I was on a business trip down in Maryland, about a three hour drive from home. It was such a beautiful morning and I enjoy an early morning drive, and i remember it being particualry pleasurable. I remember sitting in a meeting that morning, and that too went well. For some reason there wasn't much disputing. When the meeting breaks up and I walk out into the hall, I see another fellow who works there who was not in the meeting. His face was ashen pale and i asked him what was wrong, and his first words were, "you're not going to believe this." Then he said that two planes had crashed into the Twin Towers and that another plane had crashed into the Pentagon, and I just squished my face into a confused look and then just laughed with a "get atta here." And he didn't laugh back, and said I know you won't believe me but it did happen. His next actual words were "We're at war," and I think this was way before anyone comprehended the notion that what had happened was an act of war. He told me to go to a radio and find out for myself because that would be the only way to believe it. And that was true, no actual words by anyone could have convinced me that it was true. So me and another engineer, a lady engineer who worked with me, went outside to my car and there was Peter Jennings narrating what was going on at ground zero and bodies falling from the top and the confusion across the country. We just looked at each other and saidf "Oh my God" and then I had goose pimples all over my body. And those goose pimples would come back over and over all day. Well, the people at the place we were visiting pretty much went home and all the travelers, and there was number of us from across the country, gathered at a Burger King and talked over our plans. Some of them wound up driving across the country to get home. I decided to check out and head home as soon as I could and I raced up Rt 95 and got to outside the city in like two hours. I can imagine how fast I was going, but there was no one on the highway, on one. It was eerie. Again goose pimples the whole ride up. When I got to the Bridge into the city it was all shut down except if you were emergency personnel. I even tried to lie that I was but the police wouldn't let me through. All the hotels in the area, even the hourly rate ones, were all booked up. nothing. I had to spend the night in my car, never even having seen an image or video of what had happened. I tried calling people, but phone lines were down. It was an eerie night, without sleep and no radio. The next day the world had changed.
  5. 's Avatar
    You know, lit-net spared you, as I spent some time this afternoon explaining my earlier post. Needless to say I can't reconstruct it, but that the emphasis was on the fact that it would be me being political - it was not a criticism in any way of your poem which clearly, and very beautifully, describes an intense personal experience for you.