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I spent a chunk of the day trying to write. It didn't work out too well, and I'm afraid that I erased a few pages with maybe a couple more to follow. I know where it is I want to go, but I am having issues trying to get the words onto the paper. I don't normally have this much trouble. My only excuse is that I was trying to write during the middle of the day, and I can never seem to get focused at that time. I think I may try to put another half hour or so into things after writing this. I'm hoping that relaxing a little before hand is going to have made a difference in the thought process. I really hate it when I feel like everything I'm writing is crap, and then I just HAVE to delete it all.

I've also been having this crazy reoccuring nightmare. Well, I guess it isn't really a nightmare, but for me it is. We've basically decided to build a house, but now I keep having bad dreams about the whole thing. Last night I was dreaming that they built us the wrong home. Now you know all the bits that excite me. I get to choose the trim, carpet, kitchen counters, basically all the colors and styles. Well, in the dream they've just built me a home. It isn't even close to the home we've chosen, and there was no option of what the interior would look like. My daughter's room is missing a wall, and it opens into the kitchen. Everything is done in blues and rose colors, but I plan to decorate in golds, teals, browns, reds, and oranges. Basically a sunset/southwest look. The builders are telling us that we have to take this home, and that we are obligated to buy it. Anyway, it is some crazy dream, but it is still making me nervous.

Everything else is going well. I didn't get sick like I was afraid of. I am beginning to think that it is all related to allergy, and I've resigned myself for trying to press a doctor for testing when I get home. I think up here I would have to collapse before they would consent to test me and start the shots. I also cut all of my hair off. I've had it long for a few years now, and I decided I didn't like it that way. I'll change my mind in another year or two, but for the moment it is nice and short. The benefit is that it is much easier to style, and I'll have less issues making it look presentable for work.

Take Care,
Meg