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Today was just one of those days for me. I'm not too sure why, but I woke up in a wicked mood. I've spent the entire day grumpy, and now I'm trying a glass or two of wine to relax and improve the day. I sometimes have days like this, but I've been pretty much devoid of them for some time. When I say I've had a mean day, I mean one of those I'm angry at the better part of the world for no real reason. I've expended more energy today trying to be nice than I did using it to do anything else. The weather hasn't helped since it was rainy and windy all day long. The sad part is that one of our friends has just returned from California, and all I can feel is aggravation at having life interrupted with something else. He's a close friend, and he often spends the holidays here, so I feel very guilty that all I have for feeling today is irritation.

On a bit of a happier note, I've finished chapter 11 in my story, and I'm working on chapter 12. Things are going well, but I need to try and fit in more time to write. Next week will not likely be any better, because my hubby will be on days... I know:lol: not too long ago I was furious that he was getting moved to night shift, and now I'm grumpy that he is spending a week on days. I better get used to it, though. He's going to try and go back to days for the remaining 5 weeks or so we have here. That way he can spend a bit more quality time with the kids and I.

I think we've pretty much settled on building a house if it is possible. We're on a time frame, so I'm not sure if there will be time. I'm going to talk to the builder when I get back to Ohio, and I'll see how long it will take to build. We also need to worry over financing, and that is a big concern for us. I'll have been working, but it will only be for a few months. The hubby will be getting ready to leave his job and have to find another. I'm not at all confidant that we'll be able to get the loan we need to buy. That is part of why we're considering building. According to reports it is easier to get financing for a newly built home, but we'll see. I'm pretty worried over whether or not we'll be able to take out the loan.

Everything else is alright, I guess. It is just another day, but it was a bad one. I hate it when I feel like this... so angry at everything. It makes me irrational, but I've done well at trying to remain calm today. I'm a bit grateful that the hubby went out for a few hours. Maybe I'll be able to settle and make it the whole day without loosing my temper on anyone. When I'm like this that's a grand accomplishment, so I'm at least satisfied with that. Hopefully everyone else has been in a better mood. I'm working to improve mine, so maybe I'll have something happier in a day or two. I might be gone till the weekend if I don't snap out of it, but I'll be back soon.

Take Care,
Meg