Living Breathing Contradiction...

so hes gone now for the next 720 DAYS, i guess i thought if he cared i could pursuade him not to go, and not to leave. this is crazy, how on earth have i come to care so much for someone ive never met??? i think he tripped me rawr! grr! i miss him...i wish i could make it two years from now...but then i would be a senior and i kinda like my sophy status i kinda want to go curl up and cry for hours, but i keep getting told to be strong, and no one knows whats going on to upset me, i amlost got suspended for cusing out a substitue teacher....my parents where pissed at me to but it mildly. hmmmm. i wonder if i could run off and join the mission...*happy dance* no i wish that would work it would be amazing if it did. well this is just an update on how patheticly i am dealing with his departure...i just hope that he follows his heart, and enjoys his work...but i realy wish that he wouldnt have left *sigh* i would even be happy just to have him speak to me right now, even if he did call me a silly girl but i have to go class starts in 15min. bye guys.
steph