Living Breathing Contradiction...

ive caved to my desires
drug the blade acrost my wrist
thinking about you
wishing to see the crimson seep thru my whits
i wish i could forgive myself
wish i could stop the blade
licking the blood away
breathing in the pain of the world
trying to solve all the problems
yet running for your own
i know i promised not to
but the temptation ever so present
it controls my heart,my life,my every dying breath
never does the thought leave my mind
its always haunting me
lurking just around the corner
the desire for the pain
chasing the numb away
proof that im alive
spills out of that open line

sickly in love with suicide