title

should have known
it would hurt
even if denied

challenging the challenge
is always a gay turn
heart beating
quick breathes
jellied knees
feeble strength

should have known
it wasnt so
even if denied

hesitating
makes no sense
in a world of impulse
and strength

u'd never know
how much i knew
even before
that first step

it was the unknown
that drew me
to the edge
of all the tomorrows
to come

and now
tears have dried
thoughts have seized
the corner dark

they'll never know
what i felt
that day when
it shined bright

my pencil turned
eraser ready
never happened
no time to care