Living Breathing Contradiction...

why does death always seem to find me
when life is what im looking for
should love always have to end for me
why cant i have my fairytale
do i realy have to grow up
should i be able to stay innocent
despite my attempst to smile
i always seem to fall even when trying my best
i guess im jjust to weak for it to matter
not the strong person i use to be