day in a life

Well life on the ice goes by as usual and we have had a few sunny days, I prefer the rain that drips on the glass roof of my sun room more though. I sit by my dining room table listening to a record and the rain drinking my new organic coffee. My son is playing in his room with a friend so I am just having a nice moment alone, well Sisko is asleep by my feet.

My dogs don't like being outside in the rain, they are city dogs from top to bottom. Spock would rather not go out for hours than having to pee in the rain or wind. Sisko goes out but he can never be away from me for long.

I got some good advice from a litnet friend the other day about writing a positive diary. Just a few entries at night about the good things that happened that day. I have done it twice now and I like it. The other day my son was very difficult with me and I had to raise my voice a few times, then I sat down to write I was in a negative mood but when I started thinking about it there were so many good moments that day, I just had forgotten about them because of my anger. I felt better instantly.

It's nice to go over the good things before going to bed.

I am trying to use the sunny days to do stuff in my garden, it sure needs it. My stepdad is gonna help me out a bit with some building stuff. He is very handy and a lot of the things my ex built has fallen apart, he was not that handy. He thought he was but it's all crooked or just broken now.

I am thinking about writing a literary article this summer, as a side project to publish in a web-magazine for women. Don't know if I have the courage to do it but I am thinking about it. It would be huge confidence booster if it works out.

I am trying to stay positive, summer always gets me down. I kinda need to keep busy a bit and just focused to stay on track. My head goes out of control these few summer months we get on the ice.

I got few extra shifts when my son goes to his dad in July. That is good, I might just loose my mind if I am alone for 3 weeks with nothing to do.

I get paid a bit for having his friend over every day so that is money for my trip to the UK in August. I am kinda nervous that I am not being smart about this trip, I have to count everything I spend this summer so I won't have to work next semester and this trip is all paid for but the spending money is another thing. Staying in a hotel is expensive when it comes to food and stuff like that. I want to be able to buy a bit too... I'll see how it goes but little work for three months is not easy.

I'm reading 'The Shining' now, it's for school, it's my first King book and I have to say the smaller characters are way more interesting then the main. Like Watson and his sympathy towards Nixon is way more interesting than a man who gets angry and hurts his kid. But I am only a few chapters in so we'll see.

I'm gonna read a bit now before I have to feed the hungry 7 year old boys in my house!