day in a life

Now this is gonna sound evil maybe but I don't care. I have a really smart friend, she can see things in another light and way I just don't get. She has always written the best essays and gotten the highest marks. Now twice I have gotten a better grade, my last essay I got 8 and she got 7 and in a test I got 7.5 and she got 7. This has done wonders for my self esteem. I didn't think I'd ever get better grades. I have worked very hard on my projects this semester cause I want to get higher grades cause I plan to get an MA and here on the ice at least, you need higher grades to get into MA courses in literature and subjects like that than in science. I don't know if it's like that everywhere but on the ice you get a better literature scholar than physicist I guess...

Anyway I see school in a different way now and I feel like I have more confidence in my work. Maybe writing about Grendel will not be to big of a challenge.

In other news it's Monday and I am going to school in an hour. I just finished a short essay about Ferdinand by Munro Leaf and I have to go over it a bit before I turn it in. My next essay is probably going to be about 'the teenage mutant ninja turtles' , I'm gonna read some articles and see if I have enough material for it. this animal course is quite a challenge I have to say, last week we saw a documentary called animal passions and it has been on my mind for days now! the subject is so difficult to hear about and I couldn't touch my dogs when I got home after that class. I just felt wrong in some way.

My son spent the weekend with his dad so I'll go pick him up after school, it will be nice to get him home. I was really annoyed with his dad on Friday cause he came so late to pick him up, I called him around seven cause the boy was getting hungry and I didn't know what his plans for dinner were. When he answered he just said that he thought I would just make him dinner and he would pick him up later. I just got so annoyed, of course I want to have my boy and it's not a problem to give him dinner but I need to know. We really need to set some boundaries cause this is the second time this happened. Also I was very annoyed on Easter when he brought the boy back around noon and I had hid his egg and left notes all over, it's a fun tradition. Well I stopped my ex at the door and told the boy to say goodbye ( I am trying to be polite about this) then my ex just asked for coffee, I can't say no when the question is 'don't you have coffee?' I really didn't want him here when I wanted to have fun with my son, but he was... I don't really know how to handle this in a polite way but I really don't think it's OK for him to come and sit here for an hour every time. Also he once fixed the strap on my bra when he noticed it was twisted under my shirt, THAT is not behavior I like and I did tell him so the next time he was gonna do it.

Well I don't have to see him for 3 weeks now so I can be happy.

Anyways, gonna go and try to have a life outside my house.