day in a life

I am the type that needs a routine, I need to know exactly what I do when I wake up and before bed and most things in between. I like living like this and when my routine breaks it is very difficult for me. Last weekend was my moms birthday and me and my brothers and their girlfriends decided to surprise her with a 3 course meal on Sunday. This was a weekend my son spent with his dad and my routine for those two days is to eat, read and watch tv. That is the way I like it. This dinner threw me way off. I couldn't stop thinking about it and it was on my mind all weekend. I hardly picked up a book.
I have a bunch of these routines and I have been kinda obsessing about them for some time now. My mom got me a butter knife as a part of my Christmas present and now it's March and I am still thinking about that knife cause it doesn't fit anywhere in my cutlery drawer. I don't want to have it with other knifes cause it is different. Small things like this bug me a whole lot. I don't walk just anywhere, there is no logic in the way I walk down the street except in my head.
I obsess about my books more than I read them. When I want to change anything it takes days of planning were to put things and books are the hardest cause I keep changing my system.
I have a cleaning schedule for each day of the week and a list of what I have for dinner.

When I mention these things it seems like a lot but it's not like this is something that I spend half the day thinking about, walking as an example, the choices I make happen in a split second and nobody notices it (I think) but I know. I just started thinking about this because my brother is still living with me (he is looking though for a place now) and he does things wrong. Not that they are wrong but they are wrong to me. My son asked me yesterday morning when we were brushing our teeth why we need to do it so often and I realized that I make him brush twice a day and that is fine but I never leave the house without doing it so it's from 2-5 times a day. I didn't think about it until he mentioned it.

I make lists about everything, I have planned what to study for MA even though I still have a year of BA left. I have planned all my classes next year and scheduled the summer roughly. I don't like surprises and I just want things to stay the same with as little changes as possible.

What bugs me a whole lot right now and has for a while is that I don't know what I want to do for a living. I think about it all the time and I don't know. The biggest thing I can't schedule.

I do plan a whole lot of free time so it's not like I am always doing something, but that is because I live by Pippi Longstockings wisdom:

Everyone should sit on a fence at least once a day and see what happens. (or something like that, my fence is usually the couch though)