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I'm changing into Gollum,no I'm Smeagul

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Helga
, 02-10-2013 at 05:16 AM (2832 Views)
Sunday is here and I'm drinking my morning cup of coffee and listening to my son as he talks to the tv. It's OK when your a kid and so many tv shows are interactive these days. I don't think it's OK when I do it... I talk to the tv a whole lot, I talk to myself a lot too. When I was a kid I would sometimes say 'good morning' to grown ups on the street, the other day I was in shock, an 11 or 12 year old said it to me. As I walked away from her I started talking out loud to myself if this meant I'm getting older, she didn't hear me but that's not the point, she thinks I'm old and I talk to myself. I tend to answer myself too so a lot happens and it's not that interesting when I have a conversations with myself. It's almost like I know what I'll say next, is this some syndrome of a new brain disease called 'The Gollum syndrome'... maybe

My friends at school find it weird in a way that I'm getting tired of the single life but two of them have boyfriends and live with them, the other two live with their parents and one of them has a boyfriend, so I don't think they know what it's like to have only the company of a 6 year old. It's great company and he is the best part of my life but he's 6, and he's in bed at 9 every night and I'm alone every single night. I talk to my books as I read them and I talk to the tv. I tell my son what I'm studying cause nobody else wants to listen, my mom got mad a few times, well not mad but annoyed when I talked about school cause she didn't understand what I was saying so I don't talk about it that much.

I'm feeling sorry for myself now for no reason. This doesn't mean I'm unhappy or anything. school is great and I just bought a book from amazon I'm thinking of writing an essay about, called 'The Plague Dogs'.I know a little about it but I found it used and decided to buy it and see. I have a love/hate relationship with amazon, there are so many books I want to buy and I love cups, both tea and coffee cups and I just want to buy a whole lot of them. I also found a website I spend way to much time on called 'bookshelfporn.com' just pictures of bookshelves.

My brother is still living with me, he spends most of his evenings with his girlfriend or his friends and I just really wish he'll find his own place soon! He is older than me but he comes home in the middle of the night every weekend and my dog Spock is so scared of the smell of alcohol that he crawls under my bed. When he was a puppy my brothers friend gave him beer and he hasn't forgotten that! I also just want my living room back, it smells like a guy...

Well this is me in a complaining mood on a wonderful Sunday with my hot cup of coffee. Like my buddy Fowles said 'We are designed to want with nothing to want'
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  1. Bluebiird's Avatar
    I used to talk to myself a lot. In fact I still do but not so much. Usually, to stop myself talking out loud I'll suddenly start humming which might freak people out, if I actually went outside. When we go shopping I usually start singing or humming whatever song is stuck in my head and I'll often find myself complaining out loud about not being able to find things or what I need to remember to get. Once I realise I'm doing it I try very hard to stop or at least keep myself at the quietest level possible.
    In a work or school environment I found it very helpful to write down my crazy thoughts in a special notebook reserved just for that. An advantage of this is that if you're barely paying attention in a boring lecture it looks like you're diligently taking notes.
    I know why I talk to myself too much. It's because I don't really have anyone to talk to and it's a bad habit I need to get out of.
    As long as it doesn't become a problem and you keep it to a level that people won't notice so much then you should be fine. Just try not to do it too much around other people.
    Sorry for the long comment.
  2. qimissung's Avatar
    It's almost like I know what I'll say next, is this some syndrome of a new brain disease called 'The Gollum syndrome'... maybe

    You're funny.

    It's really not at all strange that you talk to yourself, a lot of people do, for just as many reasons. Maybe it's because your such good company! You too, Bluebiird.
  3. Virgil's Avatar
    I talk to myself all the time. I have always talked to myself. In fact I was doing it today while I was with my son and he asked me who I was talking to.

    Why is your brother with you and not your parents? Have you dropped hints?