day in a life

Today is Friday, my son is at school but I'll go pick him up in a few minuets. I don't have school on fridays so I have been reading and doing stuff I need to do, house work and things like that. I am currently reading 'Regeneration' by Pat Barker and enjoying it a lot. I am also reading Wolf's autobiography.

I am very busy at school as usual and just read a whole lot. My son is going to his dad today so I am gonna try and get a lot done this weekend. For the first time since we broke up son tells me regularly that he prefers to be with me. It makes me very sad cause I know he loves seeing his dad it's just his step brother has issues and stuff makes it kinda hard to play over there. He is happy to go see him though, I don't know maybe I am just making this worse in my head than it is. Last time he went to his dad he talked a lot like this and it kinda ruined my weekend cause I was always thinking if he was OK.

Well life is good in any other way. I have decided to get to know more poets. I am gonna take two poets a week and I am starting with Gertrude Stein. She is an interesting one. I am gonna start with Whitman next week, I have a collection of his work but I have never given him enough time to really know his work so I'm gonna do that. Also a few Icelandic poets on my list.

Well I am gonna go pick up my boy now, and try and read a bit with him or play cards before his dad comes to pick him up.

For a while now I have been making an effort to start every day with a compliment to my boy. I was just wondering if it had changed my self esteem if someone had told me every day what I am good at and that I was clever. Not empty compliments like 'your so smart' but more like ' You are so clever cause you figured this out on your own' or just simple ones like 'I am so proud of you, you are getting so good at reading'. I don't want him to have the same low self esteem i have had most of my life, I want him to be proud of himself and do things his own way even though people might find it weird.

Well I should go pick him up so I won't be the mom that talks about the great things she does for her kid but is to late to pick him up from school...