Barmy Blue's Bland Blog

It's been raining. A lot. Seeing as I rarely go outside getting wet isn't so much of a problem. I used to like the rain. But like everything, too much is not good. The sky is depressing. Even I am starting to miss the sunshine. I can't see the stars at night either. Also when the dog gets wet we have to dry her. Even if it's not raining the ground is still wet so we have to dry her paws. She doesn't like when I dry her paws, I'm a little too invasive and she tries to bite me. She's just ticklish. It's actually pretty cute. Even though Yuki is a husky (a dog that I'm told does not have such a strong doggy smell) she still stinks when she gets wet. It's worse when she's gone in a pond though, that really is bad.

Mum's boots are breaking already. Normally she wouldn't have to worry about footwear much but since she does the long walks her shoes and boots break very quickly. Also, due to her wide calves and broad feet it's hard to find comfortable boots. The ones that do fit keep splitting at the back.

Yuki is about 4-5 weeks into another phantom pregnancy. We assume it's a phantom pregnancy, since she's acting like she did last time. She doesn't eat (I have to threaten to steal her food to make her eat). She doesn't play as much and she's moody. Once it's over we plan to get her spayed, regardless of cost (spaying is surprisingly expensive. That's not why we've put it off though). She's also started picking up bones and other things on walkies a lot more. She's shortening her walks and we suspect worms. Well, mum suspects. I haven't seen the physical evidence but I'll take her word for it. We wormed her a couple of weeks ago. It might not have been a worm. It could just be the result of the unknown things she's been picking up at night.

Mum's caught a cough. Not a cold as yet, just a cough. I find that usually you get the sniffles or a sore throat, then branch out into a cold and then a cough but there are different cold bugs out there. She can't get sick. Her cataract operation is on Monday. If she gets sick they might not do it, especially if she's coughing. Thank you very much woman at work who has infected her, I've forgotten your name because you're unimportant to me but curse you nonetheless.

On the subject of coughs and colds. I've been holding back a cold for quite some time. I take daily multivitamins and hope my body will absorb as much as it can from them. Sometimes I get a blocked nose or sneeze a few too many times but so far it hasn't developed into an all out cold. If my throat gets a bit sore (usually at night) I pull the duvet up around my neck and even if I start to feel too hot I keep the covers up in the hopes of sweating it out so to speak. If I still don't feel well I may drink some orange juice if we have any or wear a scarf and keep myself warm at all times. I'm not sure how effective any of this is but it seems to work so far. Then again, since I don't go out I'm less likely to catch a contagious cold from other people. I'd rather try not to get sick than to get sick. I hate cold medicine. They taste nasty and I can't take those capsules they do these days because I can't swallow pills. Ah. I tell a lie. I can't swallow capsules. But little round, sugar coated pills I can swallow. As for those without the nice shiny coating, it's hit and miss.
Napoleon either had a root canal last Friday or is having one this Friday. I think it's this Friday.

I wanted to try making melon bread today but I haven't used the flour for a while and it got those little bugs in it. You know the ones? So small you almost wouldn't notice them. They tent to pop up in old flour. I wonder how they get there. Were they always there just waiting to hatch or did they get in? Not that it matters. Here's a shocker. Melon bread doesn't contain melon. Heh. Who knew. It's named after it's resemblance to the cantaloupe I think. I also fancy having a go at chocolate cornets but I need to make some horns for those.

I've been having trouble sleeping. Not uncommon for me. It's not serious insomnia so I'm not too worried about it. It's just that, when I'm alone in my room, in the dark I start to wonder if I'm a real person. Suppose. Now just suppose that it were possible to erase someone's memory and replace it with a new one (like in something like Total Recall if you like). How would you know? Supposing I just came into existence yesterday and not 24 years ago. How would I know?
On this subject.
How about what if the world isn't real? Supposing I'm the only being in existence and I've made up the whole world around me. No. I don't think I'm God. That's not the point of this. Supposing I were, say the last human in existence on an alien spaceship and to stop me going crazy they've constructed all this in my mind. How can I be sure this is the real world?

Yeah. I know. I sound crazy huh? That's why I don't say these things. I know...at least I'm pretty sure this is the real world and that I have been alive for 24 years or so. It's just, sometimes I think about these things.

Thing is, recently I've been thinking these things more.

On the plus side, that's not all I've been thinking about. I'm still thinking up cute scenes and back stories for my novel. Can you believe I've finally named my evil wizard? It's only been what 2-3 years. Supposing I actually do manage to put this story together, write it up and get someone in the business interested in it. Will I be able to let it go I wonder. Once you finish it it has to go out into the world otherwise what's the point?

Although, to ease the passing of this story I've already considered elements of a sequel so I can always put my heart and soul into that once this one is finished. I think my idea for the next one will be more fun but I'm trying not to get too far ahead of myself here. I know exactly how the first one ends and I know how it begins (although it's not as fun as the rest of it) and I have a few bits of the middle. I've tried rewriting the story but it just won't start well. I wonder if I should focus on the middle and come back to the start...but that's a risky move. It's like Frankenstein. It starts getting interesting during the whole theatrical lightning, it is a live kind of cinematic moment but up until that point it's kind of...boring? Slow? something just doesn't quite grab you. I had to study it at Uni. By the way. Victor. Total idiot. Brilliant mad scientist, yes. But an idiot nonetheless. He goes to the trouble of creating life. Well done I guess. But rejects the poor creature the second it lives. No wonder things don't work out. Anyway. I can't' critique it anymore because it's been a while since I had to read it.

Surprisingly, I'm not actually depressed. Things just aren't as good as they could be. But then again there's nothing bad either.
We'll see how things go.
I may not be liking the rain now but I'll be wishing for it when Summer hits I'm sure .

Bluebiird out.