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Helga
, 11-30-2011 at 04:44 AM (713 Views)
No one said life was gonna be easy, I think it is good to remember that. I am so well balanced these days. I realized something the other day, when I was younger, before my son was born, I was taking all sorts of medications for Depression and anxiety, tried a billion different therapies conventional and unconventional. Had darker thoughts than I would like to remember. I quit cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant, not a good idea!!! had a rough couple of months. I still had my low points but the thoughts didn't come back, I had my son now and I couldn't leave him.

Now I feel like I can handle the low points very well, they don't come as often as before and I am balanced for longer. I try to stay positive and in general I am a positive person, realistic but positive. My son is probably the smartest person in the world and I like seeing the world through his eyes. I just want to be there for him and for me and my dogs and that is enough, the rest will come when I am ready.

no one said life was gonna be easy but

for every man who will last
there's nothing he can't get past
no obstacle he can not erase
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  1. JuniperWoolf's Avatar
    This entry is very well written. I've often thought that depression might be caused by a lack of meaning more than anything else. People need something. Children provide meaning.
  2. Buh4Bee's Avatar
    Helga- Stay grounded! One day at a time and keep doing whatever it is you are doing. Awesome to hear how well you are doing.
  3. Helga's Avatar
    thanks you two, I do agree that children give meaning, before my son it was my dog that kept me here, now I have three boys to keep me occupied. that being said I also think not everybody should have kids, I think society keeps telling us we should have kids but not everybody wants to. I think that is great too, you just need to find a meaning in your life, and be nice to your nieces and nephews, so they will visit when your old.

    anyway I am gonna go study, I am spending way to much time here and my exam is tomorrow!!!
  4. qimissung's Avatar
    That was simply and beautifully put, Helga, and I am so, so glad you found somthing that brought great meaning and joy to your life. Just from what you've written about him I can tell your boy is a delight.

    You are so right that not everyone is cut out to be a parent. But you so obviously are. You go, girl! (yes, I know it's very dated)
  5. Virgil's Avatar
    I had no idea you had depression problems in your life Helga. Yes, I agree that we all have the power to change and get past if the problems are not due to mental illness. So apparently it's not an illness for you. Thank God and I know exactly what you mean by looking through life from one's child's perspective. I do it every day too. It's quite amazing.