day in a life

it is odd to feel very happy and sad at the same time. Life is a very odd thing and it is funny when you have two conflicting emotions at the same time. In general I am very happy about my life and right now I am at my happiest if that means anything. at the same time I am kinda sad or maybe just lonely, I don't want to be alone but I don't want to go out and meet people either. I was reading the disability thread, didn't feel I had anything to add to the discussion but it made me wonder, I have been asked if I have been diagnosed with OCD. Never have been and don't think I'll ever have a reason to do so. I find my behavior normal and it usually doesn't interrupt with my life. its simple things like putting things the right way in the right place, sitting in a special part of the bus or classroom, I don't mean a specific seat but like on the bus I want to be on the left and in the middle or a special row in the class room. oh and my food can't touch each other and I eat one thing at a time and in a particular order. I try not to step on lines in the street and I always walk on a certain part of the sidewalk and I always walk or drive the same way never change the route and it bothers me a whole lot if people don't drive the route I would drive.

anyway like I said if I do things my way it's not a big problem.

I don't want to go out to meet people but apparently you won't meet anyone if you are always at home, that is a very annoying part of life.