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Helga
, 10-12-2011 at 07:21 AM (867 Views)
I have this week off from school, I am supposed to be doing projects at home and prepare for big essays. I am enjoying it but I am drinking way more coffee than usual it's not ten at most now, it's more like 15 or even more than that. I do love my coffee. I think I have made a decision about Sisko, I am keeping him. I bought this thing called pet corrector it is just compressed air in a spray can and when Sisko tries to get Spock into a fight I just spray a little without them noticing and a loud hissing noise goes off and they stop. Apparently it is something about snakes and how they use a sound like that to scare predators away, anyway IT WORKS so right now I have two good dogs. Spock will be 10 next Sunday so he is getting old but he is pretty healthy so he should have a few more good years.

I realized that I have a love/hate relationship with Amazon, last night I bought a couple of cd's that you can't get here on the ice and I took a little glimpse at a few books and realized that I would go bankrupt if I stayed there for to long, it is so easy to look at the products and see how cheap they are compared to the cost here but I am not gonna buy more, at least for a little while...

my brother keeps telling me that I need to go out more and meet people, he knows me sometimes better than I do but I am just not able to get myself out the door. There is this thing in my head that tells me I shouldn't ask for a babysitter to go out and have fun. I just think that if I ask someone to babysit my boy it should be for a real reason like going to a doctor or something like that... maybe I just need to get over it, don't know. I think I need to go out and meet people and I have been alone for more than a year and a half, I kinda want to meet someone now, but I like my comfort zone and I just stay there... when my brother is telling me I should try and get out of my comfort zone I just quote Big Bang and say it's called a comfort zone for a reason and I like it there!

anyway I have started writing a bit of poetry again and this is a work in progress, don't know if I like it yet but here we go.

Empty and cold
like the window
of a house
waiting for destruction
waiting to be broken down
by an army of men

that only want to hurt you

waiting for someone
with empty promises
a cold heart
to warm my bed
for the night

thinking he'll stay
forever

knowing deep down
that he won't

Staring out the window
of a house
wondering
if the bricks will come down
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  1. Virgil's Avatar
    15 cups a day! Whoa, there is a limit as to what is healthy. I think I remember the French author Balzac died from excess coffee. Just be careful. I really like that first stanza in your poem.
  2. prendrelemick's Avatar
    After reading your poem, I think your brother could have a point.
  3. TheFifthElement's Avatar
    I hear what you're saying about Amazon. It's just too easy to click that 'buy now' button. As to whether you should get out and meet more people, well that's up to you. If you want to, you need to fit a way to get over your reluctance and do it, if not then stick to your guns. You know what's best for you.

    My daughter was 6 before we trusted her to a babysitter, and that was my Mum! I understand your reluctance to leave your son for anything other than a necessary reason. Perhaps the way you need to think about it is that getting out and enjoying yourself as an adult is a necessary reason. It's not like you do it every day; every now and then isn't going to hurt.