Barmy Blue's Bland Blog

Since I became an anime fan some Japanese words have become engraved into my mind. Even though I'd never try to say them out loud (since I can't say them properly) or normally type them, since I doubt anyone would understand, I always think them. When I think of a word in Japanese it's usually to convey something deeper than I can in English. I gauge my feelings towards something by deciding whether I think something is cute or kawaii. So to me if I think kawaii then it's something super cute since I went to the effort to think it in another language whereas cute it still good but not as cute as kawaii. (I must stress that this is just how my mind is working at the moment, I'm in no way implying one language is better or more profound than the other). I never say it but I think it. A little gargoyle statue mum brought me back from her visit to Westminster Abbey (She went with a friend to see the trees and such that were put in for the royal wedding) which was utterly unexpected was sugoi instead of cool or amazing but I said super cool. Another reason I don't try to speak or type it often is because I don't really have an understanding of the language. I've just picked up common phrases from anime. Something extremely surprising has the mental reaction of nani or Eh NANI!
Odd, how I've changed isn't it?
I've been reading over my earlier blog entries. My god how did you ever put up with me? However. I came to realise something. I've grown a lot since back then. There are a lot of things I wrote about back then that I'd completely forgotten now (until I read them again of course). I realise that I was going...not necessarily through a bad patch, I'd say more bumpy, when I started this blog, oh so many years ago now .
I don't think I realised it before but when I was in that bumpy patch, and the subsequent ones after that you guys have been there for me, even if you didn't comment, even if you didn't read it, it was nice to tell my problems to someone. It was even nicer to know that so many people read it and nicer still when you gave me words of encouragement or advice. I'm truly grateful. I don't think I've ever said this before and I should've, a long time ago.

To you, all of you I should kneel and say arigatou.


ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!!!!!


I hope I have written this so that you can understand my feelings well enough.
Really, thank you from the deepest regions of my heart.