day in a life

I really shouldn't own a computer, I did something and I think I downloaded a virus or something and couldn't access the Internet for some reason. then i tried to do something to fix it and my computer was stuck at restarting again and again. I called my Internet company and took it to the store I bought it in and nobody could do anything, my brother has a friend who is very good with computers and he fixed it for me and I got it back today!

this is the second time I download a virus and the second time I do something so I can't get to the Internet, I am not good with computers. can't live with them, and you can't live without them.


in other news my son will be 5 years old in a few days and we celebrated his birthday today, it was a lot of fun and he wanted a Darth Vader cake and a Ben 10 cake so I bought a food paper picture of Vader and put it on a cake and spent last night making a Ben 10 cake with green and black cream, very yummy, also we had lightning McQueen plates and glasses so it was a mixed theme but a lot of fun.


I find myself with mixed feelings these days, I have been alone now for almost a year and I have gone through many stages of thought and feelings. I am happier than I was before and I enjoy the way I spend my time. Now I am not feeling desperate or anything cause I am only 25 and have no need to despair but I just don't want to be alone. I want to be a couple. it will happen one day I just hope it is sooner rather than later.