day in a life

life is very normal here on the ice these days. I have the day off and also tomorrow so I am very happy about that. listened to my favorite radio show and right now I am just being lazy. My son spent the weekend with his dad so I will pick him up today, that will be nice it is always odd being alone all night and I sometimes forget and just think he is asleep in his bed. His dad is planning to start living with his girlfriend and her son when they find an apartment, I don't know if that is a part in why I think I am ready to get myself out there. Sometimes I just wish things would be easier. but that is OK and I am not hoping for something magical to happen I just want to do things my way this time.

I am not as annoyed at work as I have been lately so I think I can make it for a little while longer. I am still waiting to hear about college, I check in like 10 times a day.I just need to get back to my school work and not think about this for a few days.

I have been wondering a lot about joy and happiness. I am happier now than before and I really can't remember a time in my life when I was happier I have always had some doubt about everything and now I am just tired of it and I want to do things my way like someone said. I was watching STDS9 yesterday and Sisko said that he missed the days when all he had to do was throw Jake in the air to make him happy. My son is still like that I only need to do something like that and he is on the top of the world. than something happens to us and we always need more and more to laugh and find joy. I want to find joy in simple things that is why I jump in muddy water because it is so much fun and the worst thing that happens is you get dirty. it is so important to remember this and not take life to seriously. 'life is what happens when you are busy doing something else' I read somewhere, I don't want to miss all the small things, I want to enjoy them and one thing I keep telling my mom money isn't everything. Now I have quoted to much for a person who doesn't like quotes. well that's life

Live long and prosper