day in a life

It has been raining almost constantly for the past few days. I love the rain but for some reason I am ready for the summer. Don't know why I and I'll probably be complaining about it in a month or two.

I have to go to the mall today, I have very mixed feelings about them. there are two big malls in the capital area and a few smaller, I am going to the biggest one because it is the only one I can take a bus straight to. also it has my favorite bookstore and a good cafe but that is about it.

life is so complex, maybe ignorance is bliss, I don't know, I am not the worrying type and I always think that things will work out. right now there is a small problem with my house that might be expensive to fix and I just don't want to worry about it. I need to get someone to tell me how I can fix it and what I can do but at the moment I don't want to think about it. My mom is the worrying kind and I think it might be because of her that I don't worry a lot. she finds stuff to worry about. If there is nothing real she just makes something up to worry about. sometimes I thinks she feeds on worries.

anyway I am working this weekend and I will be off on both Monday and Tuesday, I am so happy about that. I am off today and than just work for 3 days and than I am off again. I am very tired of this job, I really wish I would get an answer from college and figure out what I want to do. I don't think I'll quit but I'll cut back a lot.

life is odd but that is OK, it is the odd and difficult parts that make it worth living.