day in a life

My computer is killing me! I want a new one right now! I am trying to be smart about this and know what I am getting and not buy something that will last for a year. my brother is gonna ask a friend of his who is very smart when it comes to computers, he saved me when I threw out the internet. I feel like I need to have two computers so I am hoping this one will be good enough for watching shows and for my son, but the new one just for school!

I have decided not to buy a car next fall if I get into college, I really want a car but I'd rather use the money I have saved up so I can quit my job!!! I am so sick of my job right now, I almost cry about having to go to work. I like most of the women I work with and it's not a bad job but I just hate it. Today is my day off cause I'm working the weekend so I am listening to my favorite radio show and drinking coffee, on Fridays he only plays vinyl. Then I am going to meet my brother and we are going to the college so I can hand in the papers I needed to get to apply. Finally they all arrived so my application can be finished and I hope I'll get an answer soon, I would be so happy to get in. funny thing my oldest brother is getting his PhD in anthropology and has at least one year left, my other brother has a BA in Icelandic and is going for his teacher permit next fall, his girlfriend is gonna start her BA in sociology next fall and her sister in anthropology so maybe we will all be there at the same time! wouldn't that be great! I need to stop thinking about this now so I won't go crazy!

my birthday is coming up in two weeks or so, if you know me you know I don't like birthdays. I have never wanted a party or anything like that and I don't expect anything from my family, often I just have dinner at my moms house and that is good I think, but this year will be different. I will be working that weekend so my son will be with his dad. my mom will be babysitting my stepdads grandkids in another part of the country. My mom feels very guilty about not being here on my birthday but I am trying to make it clear that it is OK. I do think it kinda sucks though. usually when my son is with his dad I stay inn and watch tv and eat fries or something, I kinda don't want to do that on my birthday but because I am working this weekend it's not like I can do anything... I don't know, I hope I'll just get a few of my friends to a cafe or something.

I don't have facebook and never have and hopefully never will. Now here on the ice a lot of people are leaving facebook. I am hoping it will be a new trend because I always miss out on a lot because of this facebook thing! people don't meet anymore they just chat on facebook! I don't like it.

I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I have two sentences on my fridge, one is: imagine life without desire and the other one is these are strange days. the first one is to remind me that all my life I have wanted something more and if you don't want happiness or something good for the people around you life will probably not be worth living. right now my desire is school. the other one I wrote down and then later realized was from Lord of the Rings. just because these are strange days, there is so much going on the world and not just my world but all over. I can handle my world but everything else is so unbelievable. the tragedies and the happiness and everything in this world that upset or amuse us. also you kinda feel helpless in a way when you see everything that is going on.

I have been thinking about making a happy day, all newspapers and tv news should only have good news for one day!