day in a life

a few years ago this would have been an easy task for me, I would even finish early but not now. I decided to read 12 books in 12 weeks, 2 weeks ago I think, I am still reading Great expectations... not even half way through yet, but I am enjoying it. It's odd how things change and you don't even notice it. last semester at school I had to read the Lord of the Rings, Snow Crash and the The Player of Games in just over 2 months, it was easy because I was alone and I had to do it for school so most nights I read. Now I am taking two classes, one in history particulary WWII and one in media, both very interesting but it takes me like ten minuets to finish assignments and then I just watch tv, mainly star trek deep space 9 these days.

I need to get back on track because the 12 books I want to read are in some courses I saw at the university and wanted to read them once before so it will be a bit easier to just re-read them when I finally get there.

today is my day off from work, so I am just listening (like usual) to my favorite radio show and drinking coffee. I realized something the other day, I have no faith in relationships anymore. I didn't want to stay in my relationship and got out of it. Now I am watching my brother, kinda unhappy in a relationship but he dosen't want to let it go. I adore his girlfriend but she is not very nice to him and he knows it we talk about it all the time and he tells me everything but he still wants to stay. don't know why. on the other hand my other brother is in a great relationship and they seem to balance everything very well. on every level too, with their kids, with housekeeping and with their social connections, she goes out and meets her friends and he goes out to see his friends and they go out together too. they are happy together but they didn't loose themselves in the process.

I am happy being alone at the moment but I am trying to get out more, think I'll go and get myself some coffee at the coffee house later today.

I really hope I will get into university this fall, I am so tired of my job and I think I am ready to try something new, I may not leave it entirely but cut down to like 10% maybe one weekend a month... don't know. I'll know by the end of this month if I can apply.