day in a life

my phone rang twice around 3 am last night, no answer when I picked it up and then it just stopped. don't like prank calls. I used to do it as a kid but not so late.

I am thinking about getting a puppy.... just thinking no decision made, but it's the younger sister of my friends dogs and she is adorable, one blue eye and one brown so cute.

I have made a decision about myself. I am doing a lot of thinking and examining myself to find out what I want in life. I know how to be alone and I love it. now I want more people around me. When my ex has my son I am gonna try and get out more even though it is just to a coffee house to get myself a cup of coffee and read, that is what made me happy a few years ago. my friend is getting kinda isolated too so I am gonna try and drag her out too. this weekend I have the boy and we had a very cosy night last night and watched cats and dogs:the revenge of kitty galore, he loved it and today we are going to see a movie but I think he will visit his dad later today or tomorrow, his grandma is in town and they might want to hang out a bit and I am gonna go to a coffee house when he goes to see his dad. It is odd how it changes your mood, even though you sit alone at the cafe you are surrounded by people and that is enough for me at the moment.

I was reading Wordsworth last night, he is my favorite poet, he wrote so beautiful poems about love,loss and happiness. I am struggling with writing at the moment and he always inspires me to write about simple things, like Daffodils.


I think I'll have to get that dog! I am gonna talk to my friend about it though, but I would name her Nyota.