day in a life

I just realized that I have a small fear of relationships, I realized that the next great guy I meet may not be someone I want to spend my life with. I kinda was hoping it would be easier and things just would 'happen' but life isn't like that. it's a good and a bad thing. my brother said to me yesterday that we need to work on ourselves we can't expect someone to come along and do it for us, except if it's a therapist.... I love being alone, I have said this about a million times before but sometimes I want to be alone with somebody, don't even know if that makes sense. at the moment I miss two friends I had over the internet for some reason, funny how your mind works. I have been trying to get in touch with them but lost all information a long time ago....

I just found out how I did on my courses and I passed both classes with the highest grade given, 10 out of 10 possible. I guess I know now for certain that literature is my best subject. Wish I didn't have to take all those biology and German classes

well I am on a Christmas brake from school now and I am gonna read the Silmarillion and two icelandic books and hopefully Catcher in the Rye too... but we'll see, it's not like I have all the time I want to read. I am gonna start with an Icelandic author called Thor Vilhjalmsson because I saw him the other day and found out we drink the same coffee and apparently we have a similar writing style.... I have the Silmarillion on audiobook so am listening to that these days too... but right now it's Presley, he is perfect for the mood I am in, my favorite song of his is Kentucky rain, oh I love it...

I heard something on the radio the other day that really stuck, a man said that it's scientifically proven that love is a condition that lasts for not more than 2 or 3 years but to love somebody is a decision. I kinda like that, I sometimes wish I was Spock, the Vulcan not my dog, he was half Vulcan and half human. he had the human emotions but used Vulcan methods to suppress them. to me he is ideal he thought things through never said anything he didn't mean and zachary quinto and leonard nimoy both are very hot in that role.

I am gonna get a dog next year, a female that needs a home, I am thinking about names and I am leaning towards Nyota or Dax... I think Nyota is a prettier name but that would kinda mean I was saying the new star trek film was good so that is a small problem but Dax is good because I want a dog that is young but needs a new home like the one we have been trying to rescue and Dax was a symbiont that had many lives with different hosts so it would be fitting to name a dog that... a big problem I have like you see....

well I am gonna go do something