day in a life

I am scared to say it outloud, I fear I will jinx it. but I am w.... again. Started a story I had planned a long time ago to w.... got around to it yesterday. it was so nice doing it again. I listened to Garfunkel and w... all night. I also went over some old stuff, a lot is just crap at the moment but I might get it into better shape if I can keep it up. I'm gonna try.then I read a little Murakami before bed, he is such a good writer!

It's been all over the news here, a boy I grew up with and was my best friend for years and hour moms are pretty close, has been charged with murder. It's just so shocking. I try not to talk about it cause I don't want people at work and such to keep asking me questions about it cause I don't know anything more than anyone else. it is just strange seeing someone you know being charged with something so cruel. it's hard to get it out of my mind...

I'm starting my dog on raw food, how yummy he finds it, a lot of bones and raw liver and hearts. I find it kinda disgusting but the vet said it's really good for them and there is not much fat in that diet so that is good for my fat boy, mainly proteins.

I am starting to be in much more contact with people, I meet my best friend almost daily now and we talk more on the phone too. I really like the way my life is going. I know there are a few things I need to work on though, like the other day I was walking out of a store and I saw an old friend,maybe I mentioned this before, but I just hurried in the opposite direction before he saw me. And then I was mad at myself all day for not saying hi to him. he was my best friend for a long time. then a few days ago I was sitting with my best friend at a cafe and another old friend of ours came and sat down with us and it was like therapeutic for me cause if I had seen him sitting there I probably would have walked passed him without a second glance. I just get so nervous and scared for some reason...

really need to work on that.

so that's what is going on in my life these days.