day in a life

now it has only been two weeks or so but I feel very free. I have never been alone before, I'm of course not alone, I have my son and my dog but for some reason I feel like I'm looking for something more. I do know that I want to be by myself for a while and learn how to live alone before I find something more. but I am looking for certain qualities when I meet guys.

I just love being my own boss and doing things my way but ever since I was a teenager I have wanted to be with someone and I have always thought I was not very interesting and not what a guy would want. but when all the girls around me where wearing push up bras and using make-up I just came to school with my flat chest and a pillow mark on my face. I always thought I wanted to meet someone that wanted me not the face I put on in the morning. all the guys walked passed me and straight for my best friend, I'm OK with that now.... the thing is the only people I meet is at some gathering for kids. I spend all my time with my son and when he is with his dad I am working so it's not like I'm going out.

maybe I should find myself a single dad, someone who loves kids but dosen't want more of them like me.... maybe in a few months... or a year....

maybe I should just stop rambling and get myself together.