Abortion pt. 2

[BioHestia]

I knew the day would come,
I wish it weren’t so soon.

Its one thing to think about abortion,
Its another to walk into that building.

I’ve known in my head what this means,
but I didn’t feel it in my heart.

Seeing a mother holding her toddler,
the love they share, she’d never kill him.

I’m not ready for this decision,
I want to go back in time.

I want more time,
that way I can find a solution.

One where I’m a mother,
not a terrified child.

Or back before we did anything,
so I could show myself what it would mean.

Life is such a fragile thing,
often held in the hands of others, out of our control.

Another step.
What am I doing?

And then another.
I’m doing what I have to.

I’m letting my cowardice win.
I’ve lost my fight.

Then I’m leaving,
I’m crying.

I could have done this differently,
I could have made it work.

That same mother holds that same son,
Her face says it all.

We both know what’s happened,
We both know.

I’m crying,
I can’t stop.

I wish I could take it all back now.
Everything, but I can’t.