D.M.Hill
03-29-2014, 05:30 PM
I
I realize now, that I had lost my mind.
It was a death warrant, which I myself had signed.
It was a long road, and with it, routes of discovery
But I think now, that it’s time for a recovery.
II
Now almost year prior, on that desolate day,
I failed to keep my demons at bay.
I did some things, I made my faults
The monsters I held inside, they were making constant assaults.
III
There was once hope, there was once joy,
And when it ended, it seemed to me as if it was nothing more than a ploy.
But time has passed, for you and for me.
And when I think back now, I think haltingly of my plea.
IV
I know it’s over, I know it’s done.
I know I have become nothing but one.
And as the memories fade, as they disappear
The sound of the voice also leaves my ear.
V
And as I sit here, recalling, hurting,
I feel myself adapting, converting.
So I say goodbye to you, I say it for good.
I say sorry for the things done wrong, for the things misunderstood.
VI
For the very truth is you were my long awaited
And for a while I thought maybe it was fated.
But as the clocked ticked, the hands going round
The magic disappeared, it somehow drowned
VII
When the clock stopped turning I lost my way.
When the clock stopped turning the light turned into gray.
I thought my time was over, that it was the end of me.
I thought my time was done, and the seconds had run past the fee.
VIII
So on and on the year rolled by
On and on I didn't bother to try
I couldn't pick myself up and I didn't dare
And when other people tried I just didn't care.
IX
But the day finally came and I remembered some hope
That there is life to live, and I can cope.
And as I sit, writing this down,
I no longer feel I have a broken crown
X
But for what its worth and all I can say
I am sorry, especially for the day
The day that it ended, the day I had failed
The day that cant be returned, the day that you sailed.
XI
But so it is that time has passed
And so it is that I can speak at last.
I was hypnotized and put under the spell.
But the spell was broken by the chiming of the bell.
XII
The hurt I suffered I cannot describe
I remember it so well it’s almost inscribed.
It wasn't face to face when you broke it to me
It wasn't face to face on that day between you and me.
XIII
It’s the only question I have left remaining
The only question that needs obtaining.
Why did you do it over far location?
Were we not deep enough in our excavation?
XIV
It’s a question for which I’ll never receive an answer.
It’s a question that sticks in my mind like an ever growing cancer.
For its too far gone to ask this question of late
Too far gone to get the answer straight.
XV
But for who I am now I will let it go
For who I am now I need not know.
The tide has changed and so have I
The days are gone where I sit and cry.
XVI
And this is where this comes to an end.
This is where I let go and finally descend.
Not into a world of depression and sadness
But into one of peace, beauty and grandness.
XVII
This is where I leave you know
It’s something I must do and I must allow.
We have the time, and the time was great
We tried to fix the cracks and it was just too late.
XVIII
Goodbye to you and goodbye to me
I must let you go, I must be free.
It was a long road, and with it routes of discovery
But now it’s time for my complete recovery
I realize now, that I had lost my mind.
It was a death warrant, which I myself had signed.
It was a long road, and with it, routes of discovery
But I think now, that it’s time for a recovery.
II
Now almost year prior, on that desolate day,
I failed to keep my demons at bay.
I did some things, I made my faults
The monsters I held inside, they were making constant assaults.
III
There was once hope, there was once joy,
And when it ended, it seemed to me as if it was nothing more than a ploy.
But time has passed, for you and for me.
And when I think back now, I think haltingly of my plea.
IV
I know it’s over, I know it’s done.
I know I have become nothing but one.
And as the memories fade, as they disappear
The sound of the voice also leaves my ear.
V
And as I sit here, recalling, hurting,
I feel myself adapting, converting.
So I say goodbye to you, I say it for good.
I say sorry for the things done wrong, for the things misunderstood.
VI
For the very truth is you were my long awaited
And for a while I thought maybe it was fated.
But as the clocked ticked, the hands going round
The magic disappeared, it somehow drowned
VII
When the clock stopped turning I lost my way.
When the clock stopped turning the light turned into gray.
I thought my time was over, that it was the end of me.
I thought my time was done, and the seconds had run past the fee.
VIII
So on and on the year rolled by
On and on I didn't bother to try
I couldn't pick myself up and I didn't dare
And when other people tried I just didn't care.
IX
But the day finally came and I remembered some hope
That there is life to live, and I can cope.
And as I sit, writing this down,
I no longer feel I have a broken crown
X
But for what its worth and all I can say
I am sorry, especially for the day
The day that it ended, the day I had failed
The day that cant be returned, the day that you sailed.
XI
But so it is that time has passed
And so it is that I can speak at last.
I was hypnotized and put under the spell.
But the spell was broken by the chiming of the bell.
XII
The hurt I suffered I cannot describe
I remember it so well it’s almost inscribed.
It wasn't face to face when you broke it to me
It wasn't face to face on that day between you and me.
XIII
It’s the only question I have left remaining
The only question that needs obtaining.
Why did you do it over far location?
Were we not deep enough in our excavation?
XIV
It’s a question for which I’ll never receive an answer.
It’s a question that sticks in my mind like an ever growing cancer.
For its too far gone to ask this question of late
Too far gone to get the answer straight.
XV
But for who I am now I will let it go
For who I am now I need not know.
The tide has changed and so have I
The days are gone where I sit and cry.
XVI
And this is where this comes to an end.
This is where I let go and finally descend.
Not into a world of depression and sadness
But into one of peace, beauty and grandness.
XVII
This is where I leave you know
It’s something I must do and I must allow.
We have the time, and the time was great
We tried to fix the cracks and it was just too late.
XVIII
Goodbye to you and goodbye to me
I must let you go, I must be free.
It was a long road, and with it routes of discovery
But now it’s time for my complete recovery