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[miyako73]

I should not respond to your slighting again since many of us here use (c) and are "optimistic", but let me express my thoughts. Can't you mind your own freakin' business? That's first. Does your "over optimistic" mean that we should not use (c) because our works are garbage nobody will plagiarize or that we should not think of getting published because it won't happen?

If I decide to publish all my works tomorrow, I can; my family owns a printing press in my country. But I want challenge, and I don't want easy roads. I may be a "sissy", but I am actually a strong person who can laugh off depression or suicide and who also thinks easy roads are for sissies.

So, if you think your bullying can drive me into depression as you know it, you are wrong. Depression for me is a mental state when I am writing and having fun. If I'm not depressed, I play poker, go clubbing, and waste money. Also, suicide already gave up on me years ago. Again, if you think your bullying can crush my sensitivity, you are wrong. I am not what I write.

Even if my poems are garbage, I'll protect them from plagiarists and lazy poets who are out there looking for raw ideas. Yes, even idiots have raw ideas that can inspire you as a poet. You can actually copyright ideas not necessarily your finished poems. Don't you know that?

Actually, I'm thankful for your subtle insults. They push me to learn and write more. The more you say that I don't know how to write, the more I learn, read, and write. You have to be more than my parents or even God to make me quit.

I know you have no dream of getting published maybe due to your age or self-esteem. I'm a little bit more than thirty. I still have time. Although my confidence wanes sometimes, it does not really make me lose hope. Definitely, I won't follow your pessimism.

In writing, I think, I learn, I read, I write, and I also hope.

[Jack of Hearts]

Take a deep breath here. Everything is ok miyako. Certainly we are all attached to our work and our process. But a little bit of perspective would go a long ways here. Nobody is trying to hurt you. It sometimes gets a little thorny around here, it's nature of having so many diverse personalities. Sometimes it's good to get a little space for a while. Maybe this means taking a minute to log off then come back later. A forum is just a medium, a silly internet medium, but sometimes it catches real human emotions.

Whatever is really going on (and whatever you think is going on, which is not necessarily the same thing, remember)... it's definitely not worth all of these bad, genuine vibes. Log off. Take a nice walk, hot shower, pet a cat. Come back refreshed with some great new material and let all the icky feelings wilt away.




J

[miyako73]

Thanks for the advice.

I'm just wondering why he has been slighting me. That's all. His previous comments mocked my sensitivity and my writing skills. He has overestimated himself as if he can really put me down. If he doesn't like what I write, he is free not to read them.

The funny thing is that he saw this tiny (c) not the whole poem. How petty is that?

Thank you again, Jack.

[Scheherazade]

Keep it off the boards.

Those who continue to use these boards to air their personal differences will be banned from the Personal Poetry section.