What and how?

[Shaman_Raman]

Feelings?
Frustrations with questions
Pondering naturalists
That flow,
Breezing througH
with euphoric
Instincts I envy,
lifting my cup
Wishing,
Hoping for wine
Not simple water
Flavorless
Without any soul.
How?
A right,
Or divine privileges
for few and between
Boxed in,
Shameful leaves I
wandering wall to wall
the door opened from within,
those out
Stay out.