The Reluctant Muse

[Dark Muse]

The Reluctant Muse

You are the most
resistant
muse I have ever known.

When I think of you
you choke my words.

I know
it is within your nature
to refuse to be
manipulated,
or dominated,

and you lack
the ruthlessness
to force yourself,

merely whisper
instead of scream
to be heard.

Thus I only catch
scraps of impressions
feelings like scattered
jigsaw pieces
with missing joints.

So the picture
is never made complete,
unwillingly
you tweak
my emotions
leaving me
stranded.

I want to capture
you, to paint your portrait
in words,
to put together my intention,

but you elude
and will not be defined,
an egret waiting in the mist

disappearing the moment
the fog clears
so clarity
can never be found

leaving me
searching
for you.