Jassy Melson
01-28-2012, 04:08 PM
I have been damned for all time
for what I did--but wait a minute,
what was it that I exactly did?
You say I betrayed him for money
but it wasn't like that at all.
I was chosen by him and his father
at the beginning of it all. Why? Who knows.
I guess they needed a scapegoat
so I was chosen before I was born.
I had no say in the matter. I was just a pawn
in their divine/infernal game. A betrayer was required
and so I was chosen.
How was I at fault?
As far as I'm concerned
it was all a matter of determinism.
I wasn't consulted in the matter.
So it was determined long before
I was even born that I would be the one
to betray Him--for money no less.
They didn't even give me a noble reason
for betraying Him--it was all for filthy lucre.
I am bitter above all for that.
It was all so long ago
but I remember all the details.
It was all prepackaged a long time ago.
Do you blame me for feeling bitter?
I can see them now--putting their heads together
and concocting the plan, with no thought
much less compassion for me.
Need I say that I think I was the one betrayed?
That I was sold long before he or I were born?
for what I did--but wait a minute,
what was it that I exactly did?
You say I betrayed him for money
but it wasn't like that at all.
I was chosen by him and his father
at the beginning of it all. Why? Who knows.
I guess they needed a scapegoat
so I was chosen before I was born.
I had no say in the matter. I was just a pawn
in their divine/infernal game. A betrayer was required
and so I was chosen.
How was I at fault?
As far as I'm concerned
it was all a matter of determinism.
I wasn't consulted in the matter.
So it was determined long before
I was even born that I would be the one
to betray Him--for money no less.
They didn't even give me a noble reason
for betraying Him--it was all for filthy lucre.
I am bitter above all for that.
It was all so long ago
but I remember all the details.
It was all prepackaged a long time ago.
Do you blame me for feeling bitter?
I can see them now--putting their heads together
and concocting the plan, with no thought
much less compassion for me.
Need I say that I think I was the one betrayed?
That I was sold long before he or I were born?