What I am living for?

[osho]

I have some unfinished assignments to complete
Some love affairs yet to bear fruit
I have an old vendetta and fear I die undone

I have deferred some dreams
I know I have not kissed her enough
I can not unburden the emotional weight of attachment
I want to prove to many the worth of my existence
To women my manliness, to my enemies my muscles
To my Gods my devotion

Alas I have already gone past the lives of many of them
Amongst those survived are dying too
And a few will die before I settle my negotiations with them

I have a dream to realize; I have a craving to fulfill
But the desires and dreams cannot materialize
For the seeds have fallen on a barren wasteland

My vendettas cannot manifest since they are slaying themselves
My impulses will die down
I will live like dry bones colliding with the rest in this dreary wasteland
Yet the verdict has to be heard
And I am waiting dreamily
Though the judge and the culprit will be both gone
I, a fulfiller, a paranoid, a nemesis, a lover and the endless egos, am a dreamer
With an interminable mania I am living
In the soup of life for your ingestion

[free]

Very sincere thoughts about one's life and personality based upon his beliefs. I, partucularly, like the last two lines:

With an interminable mania I am living
In the soup of life for your ingestion


which sound ironically towards the poet's own self, yet opening the ever unresolved enigma of the meaning of life.

[osho]

Very sincere thoughts about one's life and personality based upon his beliefs. I, partucularly, like the last two lines:

With an interminable mania I am living
In the soup of life for your ingestion


which sound ironically towards the poet's own self, yet opening the ever unresolved enigma of the meaning of life.

You kindled a flame of inspiration and encouragement in me and indeed with such comments and applause I will definitely come up with better poems though I am unsure I deserve the commendation or not