Mind chat.

[zoolane]

Here go anything and everything, Not sure how to feel or what I should said or do. I am going fail the up coming exams in week time for English, so all hard and good intention have gone waste. Why did I let myself believe I could put it off? Maybe I was dream or live in fantasy world. I should just pretend I was dumb, not started writing and had nerve break down instead. Maybe pop more pills would of worked better me. Be different was way going worked wrong for me, even when was growing up. Why did I think that people would accept for who I am not want they want me be. Why does my brain not keep stuff inside which I need for the exams. Why I am dreaded the point there I wish ground swallow me whole.

The evil has come back from it 2 years, supposedly with loss of memory. This stunt as be use time and time again. How hell can they be dupe yet again by him. OK maybe I am harsh on it? Now can be missing for 2 years and try get the grandsons not tell that see you it in the shop. Last appear was Christmas just gone. Why should I have to pity or be suck to forget and forgive pain and trouble cause me? I will tolerant and polite as possible can but one hint of abuse from him and I will not take laid down this time.

[Delta40]

First, I hope this isn't true.

Second, your description of self-talk concerning the exams is absolutely spot on. I tortured myself for years with this sort of stuff.

The abusive relationship is a stand alone piece which I would urge you to expand upon, Zoo

[kittypaws]

zoolane

In my opinion, for you to express your feelings regarding these two situations shows me you are strong, you acknowledge them and are not afraid.

My advice...Believe in yourself as only you have the power and will to do. Once you do all things will fall into place.

I will start. I believe YOU can do anything you set your mind to.

Kittypaws

[zoolane]

Thank you both for comments and I just in self doubt mode when it come the exams.

Second situation still try figure it out in my head for go to writing anything.

[MystyrMystyry]

You'll be right Zoo - I've cast a spell over everyone's exams to make them go easier

Actually this does read like it could be made into something much longer and stronger - a dark tale involving blackmail and murder - but I wouldn't want to give you any ideas :)

[Delta40]

Heh, Heh. I'm waving my magic wand for you too. Remember this as well. I failed a few units and it cut like a knife. A friend passed this onto me for comfort.

Failure doesn’t mean you’re a failure,
it does mean you haven’t succeeded yet.

Failure doesn’t mean you haven’t accomplished something,
it does mean you have learned something.

Failure doesn’t mean you’ve been a fool,
it does mean you have a lot of faith.

Failure doesn’t mean you’ve been disgraced,
it does mean you were willing to try.

Failure doesn’t mean you don't have it,
it does mean you have to do something in a different way.

Failure doesn’t mean you’re inferior,
it does mean you’re not perfect.

Failure doesn’t mean you’ve wasted your time,
it does mean you have a reason to start fresh.

Failure doesn’t mean you should give up,
it does mean you should try harder.

Failure doesn’t mean you’ll never make it,
it does mean it will take a little longer.

Failure doesn’t mean God has abandoned you,
it does mean he has a better way.

Rehana Mohammadi

[Delta40]

That's the plan B remedy btw!

[zoolane]

Thank you Delta it lovely and make lot of sentence.

[Alexander III]

Ouch, I feel for you Zoo, the disappointment of failing exams is bitter; especially when you set your hopes on it, but this quote always cheers me up, or rather encourages me

"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better."

- samuel beckett

[zoolane]

Thank you Alex. One exam done and one more to do.

[Delta40]

Go Zoo!

[DocHeart]

I feel for this guy. I've sat hundreds of exams in my life, but I never liked them. Quite a few times (at least four) I spent the couple or three days before the exam mostly sat on the toilet. Being assessed... what a horrible situation.

zoolane, hang on in there, pal. You'll be fine in the end.

Bon chance,
DH