virgo27
04-20-2011, 09:51 AM
To descend into this kind of crazy is a relief. It cleanses the mind for the next bout of crazy. It is a private occurrence that needs to happen often, but not too often. To be completely free and irrational, away from the correction of rationality, purges the filth of the mind into sewage of the streets. It allows the thought to slip out of the ear and fall to the ground like a wet limp leaf.
This sort of process is born in the soul of the anxious. One is delicate and fragile in this agitated place. This is why seclusion and calm are necessary. The nerves pulse the blood flow and the hands shake and the eyes are open wide. The slightest noise or cold air can disrupt the thought process and destroy any constructed harmony. The only tolerable disruption are the needs of the child.
This tolernace has been practiced since the beginning of adulthood as a teacher. The impulse control to repress any feelings that place the Crazy before the child. The child’s needs are to always be met first, than harmony may continue. Does resentment toward the child build? This resentment is filed as irrational and thus becomes part of the purging process.
There is gratification through freedom from social interaction. The thought to freely walk the shops and to possibly buy anything in them is so tolerated, since only one item will be purchased. Talking to shop girls is tolerable, like talking to one’s dog. To practice fiscal responsibility when the account is overly abundant, is difficult. To truly be Crazy, one would not be able to practice self-restraint on any level.
To achieve true Crazy, means that one no longer can identify that one is Crazy, but believe her crazy as a normal, yet an extreme normal. This is a sad state to befall anyone. Once there, there is a whole host of people that must detangle the knotted yarn of irrational thought. Recovery is possible, but often very hard and exhausting.
It is a warning to thyself, to maintain a level of normal and not to go to far into the darkness. To durange the mind by thinking tortured thoughts is not safe. Therefore visiting unpleasant memories, assuming a possibility without proof, or drawing a conclusion based on perception could have disastrous consequences.
Tomorrow the crazy must be put away and the sun must shine, replace the mask. A prayer must be uttered and a reconnection with the divine must be saught out. The mood must be stabilized and the permanent pleasant smile must return. Like the sun. This is the best one can hope for and work toward achieving. This is what crazy is like.
This sort of process is born in the soul of the anxious. One is delicate and fragile in this agitated place. This is why seclusion and calm are necessary. The nerves pulse the blood flow and the hands shake and the eyes are open wide. The slightest noise or cold air can disrupt the thought process and destroy any constructed harmony. The only tolerable disruption are the needs of the child.
This tolernace has been practiced since the beginning of adulthood as a teacher. The impulse control to repress any feelings that place the Crazy before the child. The child’s needs are to always be met first, than harmony may continue. Does resentment toward the child build? This resentment is filed as irrational and thus becomes part of the purging process.
There is gratification through freedom from social interaction. The thought to freely walk the shops and to possibly buy anything in them is so tolerated, since only one item will be purchased. Talking to shop girls is tolerable, like talking to one’s dog. To practice fiscal responsibility when the account is overly abundant, is difficult. To truly be Crazy, one would not be able to practice self-restraint on any level.
To achieve true Crazy, means that one no longer can identify that one is Crazy, but believe her crazy as a normal, yet an extreme normal. This is a sad state to befall anyone. Once there, there is a whole host of people that must detangle the knotted yarn of irrational thought. Recovery is possible, but often very hard and exhausting.
It is a warning to thyself, to maintain a level of normal and not to go to far into the darkness. To durange the mind by thinking tortured thoughts is not safe. Therefore visiting unpleasant memories, assuming a possibility without proof, or drawing a conclusion based on perception could have disastrous consequences.
Tomorrow the crazy must be put away and the sun must shine, replace the mask. A prayer must be uttered and a reconnection with the divine must be saught out. The mood must be stabilized and the permanent pleasant smile must return. Like the sun. This is the best one can hope for and work toward achieving. This is what crazy is like.