Have I done right thing?

[zoolane]

Have I done right thing?

Have I done right thing? Certain person will not agree with this decision, because accord to this person it drags up again but the point is that always going to be here. I have block out for years, I spoke to counsellor, still pop in quite lots time or something will trigger it off. Smell, sight or a said. If only I can get past it but I can’t. The decision and act I have just engaged is big one, I am strong to go head or through it?

Maybe this help tears flowing down cold, stone cheeks and bring down gigantic barrier that is up in mind and heart. Soft side of which buried for god know many years, well over decade, maybe able flourish with the found sense of me. The burden I carrying this entire time only people similar background understand. Have I done right thing?

[hillwalker]

I'm guessing there's some personal history behind this - and certain individuals perhaps would prefer you let sleeping dogs lie.

BUT you are the only person who knows how these unpleasant memories from the past never let you go until you come to terms with them in your own way. They will hold power over you until you take control..... that's the way these things work.

You have grown as a writer during the last 9 months and it's no coincidence that you are growing in personal confidence as well. The two often go hand in hand.
Stick with your instincts - you deserve as contented a life as anybody else, do you not?

H

[YesNo]

Have I done right thing?

What did you do?

As a story, I like this start. It grabbed my attention right away and might be a first chapter of something longer. An alternate voice should arise that balances the "I" and explains things differently perhaps, but you got me wondering just what did you do.

[everyadventure]

Oh, I love this line: "flourish with the found sense of me." It ought to be engraved on a plaque...

[PrinceMyshkin]

What a wonderfully passionate, honest interior dialogue! Only time will tell, I guess, whether you did the "right thing" but at least you know you had to and tried to do something.

[zoolane]

Thank you for all comments. Hillwalker you right I do deserve a contented life.

Will I not be seen as tell-tale life? Or someone who wants justice after these years for forbidden secret that I hid. From the outside world, does world have right know truth of it? Shall I destroy the world with its rose colour hinted glasses? All the whispers from decade ago will start again, with the sweep of the dirt with the road sweeper and up with rising the dawn. All the cobwebs will slowly be blow away of the my brain within, I will be not guilty about my dirt secret which is now out in the open as last.

[everyadventure]

Will I not be seen as tell-tale life? Or someone who wants justice after these years for forbidden secret that I hid. From the outside world, does world have right know truth of it? Shall I destroy the world rose colour hinted glasses? All the whispers from decade ago will start again the sweep of dirt with the road sweeper and up with rising the dawn. All the cobwebs will slow be blow away of the my brain within, I will not guilty about my dirt secret which now out in the open as last.

A powerful addition, Zoo. You have a voice that should not be silenced.

[zoolane]

Rose colour hinted glass is shattered beyond belief; with sharped pieces, pierce with consequence which shake the world. They delusion which held so dear for so long will be gone. In brink of an eye. Why should it me that protect they twinkle in their eyes? Because person that should be doing this, is not ready to admit the truth of it. I hope that it’s not too late for this devours to have decent outcome. To save the twinkles’ emotions from be destroy and swirl from have a normal world.

[hillwalker]

Why should it me that protect they twinkle in their eyes?

That is a very profound question - I'm hoping the 'twinkle' in their eyes will not be diminished when you stand up for your rights. There's almost a confessional tone about this piece, zoo. You are indeed one of a kind.

H

[zoolane]

The twinkle in their eyes phrase is just same apple of my eye expression. Thank you for comments everyone.

A past life come calling at my door, with it senting me on uneven trip. Why have I suddenly felt urge to be the Good Samaritan now? Why not all those years ago? I was stupid and naïve as adolescent is or just drunk on way on the slippery path of her parents before her. Is remorse I feel now or the need to try close that chapter that is called my childhood? Maybe is begun of the fresh start for me, my emotional, mental state and become more of better person or parent? If I follow through with decision, the dark clouds could lift forever? I live in hope.

[Jerrybaldy]

Take any responsibility. Let go any bitterness (it makes you ugly). Move on. Enjoy your self its later than you think.
x

[zoolane]

The burden has a partly been lift on my shoulder, calm, serenity feeling come waves over me. With built up angry which was bear down on my soul, drained slow out of my toes. I think that could maybe possible walking on air. Yet I know more to doing with this burden which had on my shoulders for so long. More talking, explaining with this chip that eating away at me for all these years. Hoping that the bad dreams will go away and help the little twinkle in there eyes from prey eyes.