An autisitic view

[mpdague]

The autistic spectrum of disorders affects millions of individuals and families. After reading ‘How Can I Talk if my Lips Don’t Move’ by Tito Rajarshi Mukhopadhyay, an autistic author, I make this attempt to capture some of what he had to say.





My voice pulses
ululates in colors
I have no words
to describe

Ineffable dirty
white seen amidst
clouds passing
on sunlit days

scream does not quite
convey vibrational
moans many years
in the making, fuchsia
blended in shadows
a much closer definition

my world rotates,

Shudders, stops ,starts

refracts like carnival
kaleidoscopes reflected
in revolving mirrors

shattered, mosaic slithers,

taped with insecurity
futile lines of communication

input is random, beyond my
control, unexpected events terrify

who knows whether your cloud
will hue into my spectrum,
your vibration enter my frequency
or resonate with my shadow,
allowing you a glimpse of this story
spun in quicksilver hematite

my reality is an escalator
of sensory input
you cannot perceive


how then
to bridge
such divides


© 2010
MPD

[Delta40]

I particularly liked the last section
who knows whether your cloud
will hue into my spectrum,
your vibration enter my frequency
or resonate with my shadow,
allowing you a glimpse of this story
spun in quicksilver hematite

my reality is an escalator
of sensory input
you cannot perceive


how then
to bridge
such divides

Here the swirling kaleidoscope and mismatched input and frequencies came together temporarily to allow us a better insight.

[cogs]

i like that you use images to show the facts... the last part,

my reality is an escalator
of sensory input
you cannot perceive
how then
to bridge
such divides
starts out with the escalator image, but then moves to the concrete statements. perhaps continue with the images to tell about the perception and the bridge question.
really, it's a unique poem worth reading again to get the full idea.

[firefangled]

I think this is a worthwhile attempt at describing how autism must feel first hand.

The last three stanzas do say everything that came before them. That's where the poem is IMO.

[hillwalker]

I also felt the closing few stanzas were by far the most powerful. A wonderfully imaginative piece.

H

[Bar22do]

This is an amazing inspiration from Tito's extraordinary book, mpdague. I'd suggest you could do without the telly "I have no words to describe", "does not quite convey", "a much closer definition", "unexpected events terrify" (we know of it, plus you do show us that just a word later).
I find your poem worthwhile working on to give it its fullest power. Thanks for sharing it. With best regards, Bar

PS Perhaps you would like to give another thought re title, also. I'd prefer it were less direct...

[Delta40]

my friend has been over today asking for help to write about autistic savants! talk about coincidence...

[mpdague]

Here the swirling kaleidoscope and mismatched input and frequencies came together temporarily to allow us a better insight.[/QUOTE]


Thank you Delta 40. It is a most interesting book and trying to describe the world as he sees it was really difficult and I am still not satisfied with the piece.

M

[mpdague]

i like that you use images to show the facts... the last part,

starts out with the escalator image, but then moves to the concrete statements. perhaps continue with the images to tell about the perception and the bridge question.
really, it's a unique poem worth reading again to get the full idea.



Thank you cogs. Part of the difficulty in writing this was keeping my perception limited and I did not succeed as well as I would have liked.

M

[mpdague]

I think this is a worthwhile attempt at describing how autism must feel first hand.

The last three stanzas do say everything that came before them. That's where the poem is IMO.




Thank you for the feedback firefangled. One of the reasons I posted this was to get some feedback as I know it is not yet a finished piece.


M

[Technophile]

@ firefangled: Actually, it's one Autistic's viewpoint, and doesn't convey the experiences of all of us. 'If you've seen one case of Autism, you've seen 'em all.' An NT suffering from Ignorance Disorder.

[mpdague]

I also felt the closing few stanzas were by far the most powerful. A wonderfully imaginative piece.

H


Thank you H. I have tried over the years to stretch myself in relation to perspective.


M

[mpdague]

This is an amazing inspiration from Tito's extraordinary book, mpdague. I'd suggest you could do without the telly "I have no words to describe", "does not quite convey", "a much closer definition", "unexpected events terrify" (we know of it, plus you do show us that just a word later).
I find your poem worthwhile working on to give it its fullest power. Thanks for sharing it. With best regards, Bar

PS Perhaps you would like to give another thought re title, also. I'd prefer it were less direct...



I appreciate your comments Bar22do, and I am working on a revised version and title change. I am thankful for your reminder to show the reader, rather than tell them.

M

[mpdague]

my friend has been over today asking for help to write about autistic savants! talk about coincidence...



Perhaps it was just fortuitous................:D

[mpdague]

@ firefangled: Actually, it's one Autistic's viewpoint, and doesn't convey the experiences of all of us. 'If you've seen one case of Autism, you've seen 'em all.' An NT suffering from Ignorance Disorder.



I was not intending this to be other than my interpretation of the material form Tito's book Technophile. Each person's autism is unique to that individual, just as each individual is unique unto themselves.

but I also thank you because it is a reminder that I need to change the title so that others do not think I am trying to convey more than the experience I had reading this author.

I apologize if I have offended. My intent was only to convey what I experienced because it moved me.


M