sunnydelight227
12-13-2010, 12:24 AM
My heart flutters.
It’s something i haven’t felt in quite some time. A feeling of unimaginable hope and warmth. It’s been months that i’ve been living just for one. Since another’s life has been as important as my own… since Julia. A sweet scent in the air is what does it for me. A mixture of vanilla and coconut fills my senses and I’m now front and center in a theater of my own memories and dreams.
Snow gently blanketing a quaint collegiate town.
I bask in the beautiful light of a powerful sunset, getting lost in the spectrum of colors in the sky.
I stand in a museum with Julia surrounded by some of the world’s most inspiring artwork but i can’t seem to take my eyes off of her.
Julia and I both dance like cavemen in my apartment, tipsy off wine. We spin, shake, and flail to silence. I look at her and feel unbelievably comfortable looking like a complete fool. I look into her eyes, she looks into mine, dances foolishly closer and kisses me. I feel infinite.
Everything goes dark. I snap out of it. The aroma still in the air, my senses work together to find the source. I half expected to see Julia sitting there across me. Smiling up at me ear to ear, her intoxicating blue eyes saying the three words i’ve been aching for months to hear, “I miss you” But as i’ve learned, life isn’t a dream. I finally find the source of the scent as my fantasy fades out and i see who’s really sitting across me; a tinted woman with long black hair and beautiful green eyes. She looks up at me and softly bats her eyelashes, she smiles. I smile back.
I’m gone. She’s taken me.
We spend the weekends getting to know each other. There’s always excitement in meeting someone new, something about the idea that you both have a raw attraction over each other; a joy in discovery and the unknown, a fresh start. We both had a lot of things in common; music, movies, even tastes in food. We start to find comfort in each other’s company. We start talking more and more. We go out and explore as much as we can, try and be as active as we can. We see parks. We see museums. We see movies, plays, and comedy shows. Our attraction growing stronger with each step, with each smile and kiss.
Weeks turn into months and we’re still together. She cares about me, thinks about me, gives me the affection i crave. She wakes me up some mornings with kisses and hugs. She takes me to places all around the city where scenes from movies i love were filmed. She takes hundreds of photos of us, telling me “every moment with you is worth preserving.” We always look through them together when we get back. We comment on each one about how silly or cute we look, or how strange a person in the background may seem. She’ll make us dinner and always consoles me on days i’m feeling down. We start to talk about the future and what it may hold for us, where we plan to be, what we plan on doing. It should scare me, but i’m ok with it…. i understand.
She still hasn’t dropped the big three words on me. I’m not stupid, i’m sure it’s coming soon… but Love? It seems like such a silly concept to me nowadays. I mean, love is like a magician’s finale trick, it’s spectacular, wondrous, blinding and keeps us wanting more but the secret is of course never revealed. “Love” is a weak attempt to label something that is completely subjective. It’s a word that tries to describe the pure magic and infinite connection you feel with someone. Language will never do justice to matters of the heart. True love though… soul mates that is- well i believe that is a matter of the mind. The heart falls in “love”, but the mind decides who is “the One.” The mind decides who you know you will be happy with for the rest of your life.
We’re on my couch, affection pours out of us both as we kiss. She looks up at me with her enchanting green eyes, blinks softly and does it- reveals her love for me. I freeze up, my mind speeds up unbelievably. I know what i SHOULD say, what she wants me to say… “I love you.” Simple and easy… just say it, “I love you.” I decide to close my eyes for a moment and see what it shows me. Maybe I can find some truth in my darkness.
I see us sitting in my bed, curled up in a blanket next to the window. We watch the commotion outside as an ambulance and police car stop in front of my apartment building. We can’t even see much but for some reason it’s more exciting to us then anything else at the moment, we can’t take our eyes off of it.
We’re at a sushi bar, our favorite food. Fantastic sushi creations rolling by in front of us on what seems to be a never-ending conveyer belt. The unbelievable look of happiness on her face as each one rolls by.
The joy she gets from seeing a dog, always excitedly poking me when we walk by one.
Her falling asleep in my lap while watching a movie far too scary for her. She looks absolutely beautiful, more beauty than i’ve ever seen.
Her stunning naked body and the way she looks at me when she sees mine.
We’re in her bed… i feel the cold comfort of her pillows on my face against the warmth of her fleece bedsheets on my body. She wraps her arm around me and moves closer, her feet rubbing against mine trying to get warm. Our noses almost touching, her blue eyes locked with my brown ones, she mouths three words to me and i feel… completely at home.
My heart flutters. My eyes burst open.I look into the green eyes of the woman who just told me she loves me. I realize all those memories were of Julia, of my blue eyes, the one both my heart and mind chose. What am i supposed to do?
I do what i need to do, what i’ve been trying to do ever since Julia left me. I look into the beautiful green eyes in front of me… and i mouth the three words back to her.
I keep moving on.
It’s something i haven’t felt in quite some time. A feeling of unimaginable hope and warmth. It’s been months that i’ve been living just for one. Since another’s life has been as important as my own… since Julia. A sweet scent in the air is what does it for me. A mixture of vanilla and coconut fills my senses and I’m now front and center in a theater of my own memories and dreams.
Snow gently blanketing a quaint collegiate town.
I bask in the beautiful light of a powerful sunset, getting lost in the spectrum of colors in the sky.
I stand in a museum with Julia surrounded by some of the world’s most inspiring artwork but i can’t seem to take my eyes off of her.
Julia and I both dance like cavemen in my apartment, tipsy off wine. We spin, shake, and flail to silence. I look at her and feel unbelievably comfortable looking like a complete fool. I look into her eyes, she looks into mine, dances foolishly closer and kisses me. I feel infinite.
Everything goes dark. I snap out of it. The aroma still in the air, my senses work together to find the source. I half expected to see Julia sitting there across me. Smiling up at me ear to ear, her intoxicating blue eyes saying the three words i’ve been aching for months to hear, “I miss you” But as i’ve learned, life isn’t a dream. I finally find the source of the scent as my fantasy fades out and i see who’s really sitting across me; a tinted woman with long black hair and beautiful green eyes. She looks up at me and softly bats her eyelashes, she smiles. I smile back.
I’m gone. She’s taken me.
We spend the weekends getting to know each other. There’s always excitement in meeting someone new, something about the idea that you both have a raw attraction over each other; a joy in discovery and the unknown, a fresh start. We both had a lot of things in common; music, movies, even tastes in food. We start to find comfort in each other’s company. We start talking more and more. We go out and explore as much as we can, try and be as active as we can. We see parks. We see museums. We see movies, plays, and comedy shows. Our attraction growing stronger with each step, with each smile and kiss.
Weeks turn into months and we’re still together. She cares about me, thinks about me, gives me the affection i crave. She wakes me up some mornings with kisses and hugs. She takes me to places all around the city where scenes from movies i love were filmed. She takes hundreds of photos of us, telling me “every moment with you is worth preserving.” We always look through them together when we get back. We comment on each one about how silly or cute we look, or how strange a person in the background may seem. She’ll make us dinner and always consoles me on days i’m feeling down. We start to talk about the future and what it may hold for us, where we plan to be, what we plan on doing. It should scare me, but i’m ok with it…. i understand.
She still hasn’t dropped the big three words on me. I’m not stupid, i’m sure it’s coming soon… but Love? It seems like such a silly concept to me nowadays. I mean, love is like a magician’s finale trick, it’s spectacular, wondrous, blinding and keeps us wanting more but the secret is of course never revealed. “Love” is a weak attempt to label something that is completely subjective. It’s a word that tries to describe the pure magic and infinite connection you feel with someone. Language will never do justice to matters of the heart. True love though… soul mates that is- well i believe that is a matter of the mind. The heart falls in “love”, but the mind decides who is “the One.” The mind decides who you know you will be happy with for the rest of your life.
We’re on my couch, affection pours out of us both as we kiss. She looks up at me with her enchanting green eyes, blinks softly and does it- reveals her love for me. I freeze up, my mind speeds up unbelievably. I know what i SHOULD say, what she wants me to say… “I love you.” Simple and easy… just say it, “I love you.” I decide to close my eyes for a moment and see what it shows me. Maybe I can find some truth in my darkness.
I see us sitting in my bed, curled up in a blanket next to the window. We watch the commotion outside as an ambulance and police car stop in front of my apartment building. We can’t even see much but for some reason it’s more exciting to us then anything else at the moment, we can’t take our eyes off of it.
We’re at a sushi bar, our favorite food. Fantastic sushi creations rolling by in front of us on what seems to be a never-ending conveyer belt. The unbelievable look of happiness on her face as each one rolls by.
The joy she gets from seeing a dog, always excitedly poking me when we walk by one.
Her falling asleep in my lap while watching a movie far too scary for her. She looks absolutely beautiful, more beauty than i’ve ever seen.
Her stunning naked body and the way she looks at me when she sees mine.
We’re in her bed… i feel the cold comfort of her pillows on my face against the warmth of her fleece bedsheets on my body. She wraps her arm around me and moves closer, her feet rubbing against mine trying to get warm. Our noses almost touching, her blue eyes locked with my brown ones, she mouths three words to me and i feel… completely at home.
My heart flutters. My eyes burst open.I look into the green eyes of the woman who just told me she loves me. I realize all those memories were of Julia, of my blue eyes, the one both my heart and mind chose. What am i supposed to do?
I do what i need to do, what i’ve been trying to do ever since Julia left me. I look into the beautiful green eyes in front of me… and i mouth the three words back to her.
I keep moving on.