anorexic autumn

[ryandyson]

hungry, an anorexic takes an interest
in acorns
ferrets away now in self-scorn
cus acrid shame hangs ever closer

bloody roses of painful shame bloom between
my skull and my brain

unknown to complain, I chew on words and numbers
hold strong to this narcotic journey
echoing world white and smoky as heaven

but it is only white and smoke
and the echo is a petrified shriek
perpetuated
by a brain spasm

though it echoes and whispers
like inner wisdom and drugs
like a frosted forest

one frozen moment malignified into a world of ice crystals
just brain spores of human self-toxicity
feels soft
because not feeling feels soft
brain dying feels soft

*

here lies a glass girl

crystal revolution made her empress for a while

so

she tilts the world it rolls to her all gold and pure
an audience in white attend her, fragile bones

she’s drunk
on love and power, electrolytes and tubes

girl curls
mum and dad curl, they are grieving sunken girl

from not enough love
slipped disrepair

painting of a girl
stuck behind the glass so long she stared right through herself

wild
and needing out
she threw herself against the wall

hard and cold the glass resolved
to close her painted mouth

and not much love
was dissonance enough

we gave her our warm hand-strokes narcotised
our pearly-girl

sleep this late love
sooths the sentenced
girl slips from the world


http://www.aspharpoetry.blogspot.com/

[hillwalker]

'malignified' - what a word!

But I much preferred the second piece to the first.

The interal rhymes in the first piece are more discomforting than lyrical and I was left with the impression of a cold, analytical exploration of a particular human condition (as if written by an alien observing us from afar).

But the second piece is wonderfully evocative of the tragedy behind anorexia. Images like 'glass girl' - 'drunk on..... electrolytes' - 'sunken' - staring 'right through herself'.

A memorable piece of writing that reminded me of Brian Eno's 'Bone Bomb'.

Quite brilliant.

H