icemaster2340
07-29-2010, 01:04 PM
(FYI this is a really short story never really had time to think this out much just wrote it upon spur of inspiration. Dont kill me with your comments im a noob writer and do give suggestions on how to improve this.)
I never thought this would ever happen to me. I mean I have seen it happen to a lot of my friends but never thought one day I would have to experience it too. I thought I was special and unique because I could escape the clutches of a phenomenon that has already seized the majority of our Earth's population. I thought I could be free from the nuisance known as love. I was wrong.
"Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind, and therefore winged Cupid is painted blind."
I really hate that statement.
July 24th
8:15 am
Just getting ready to leave the camp that really changed me. I feel more confident about myself and more charismatic too. I hope that this feeling would stay with me and make me become so much more popular. I really enjoy my stay at this camp and would love to come back.
July 24th
1:32pm
Even the airport felt more alive now after the camp. I met this girl, Rei, at the airport. She was part of my camp too, but before I had never mustered up the courage to speak to her. But I have got nothing to lose and would probably never get to see her again so I decided to chat with her. As it turns out, she was a really nice person and we had a lot in common. Although she was half japanese, she did not know how to speak or write in Japanese and I showed her. Guess that's the first time learning Japanese ever had any use for me. We shared funny stories and had some food at the airport Subway. Actually i barely touched my sandwich, just watched her eat instead. I find that she is so cute in every way possible that I simply have to ask her number.
She did give her number to me, and we got a photo together as well. I watched her leave on her flight to Colorado while I made my way to a flight to Vancouver. I couldn't stop thinking about her on the flight back. Dear god what is happening to me? Am I actually beginning to have some feelings for a girl i chatted with for a mere 2 hours?
July 25th
10:35 am
Called her really early today. I know I might seem desperate but I really hoped that she has not forgotten me yet. She was not home and I neglected to leave a message. But that was the one and last time I actually dared to call her. The fear of rejection has been deeply rooted in my consciousness and I was pretty certain that I could not handle another rejection, especially right now.
July 25th
3:40 pm
Stalked her down on Facebook. That is really not my style, for after all I usually wait for people to add me instead. Guess I am really falling for her then... What am I to do?
July 26th
12:55
Had a pleasant chat with her on facebook, even though she seems more quiet online than she is in real life. I really wanted to admit my feelings to her, but once again, I fear rejection so much that I can not bear telling her my true thoughts towards her. I know I sound pathetic and cowardly but I always feel that she is much more popular than I am and would probably just find me nothing more than an interesting friend.
July 27th
2:16 pm
Karma is a B****. Completely convinced of that now. I have never (and I thought I would never) believe in love at first sight. Ironic that it has happened to me huh?
I used to laugh at one of my friends after he fell heads over heels in love with a Japanese transfer student who left abruptly. I use to laugh at him for still having feelings for someone who is half way across the continent. Now I am not so sure. Rei still lives more than 1500 miles away from me, seperated by a country border as well.
That was another reason why I did not confess my feelings towards her. I have never(and never will) believe that love can last despite long distances. Even if she does like me, I can probably only visit her once or twice a year and even then only a couple of days. Meanwhile, I am sure more attractive and charming guys are abundant in her hometown. I would never want her to suffer being trapped in love with someone so far away while falling for someone else living close to her. Both of us would be in a lot of pain that way.
July 28th
She is gradually becoming less and less responsive to my facebook posts, I believe she is slowly beginning to forget me. Heck I dont blame her, we only met for about 2 hours, how can I expect her to remember me forever. I only hope she still remembers what a fun time we shared at the airport. My last message to her was:
"I'm always online, whenever you need me, I'll always be there, and I only ask that you think of me every once in a while and that brief but fun time we shared. I'm always online and I'll always be."
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine
(sighs finally done. I know it sounds super cheesy but every single word written was heartfelt and through personal experience. You can mock at my writing but do not mock at my experience please.)
I never thought this would ever happen to me. I mean I have seen it happen to a lot of my friends but never thought one day I would have to experience it too. I thought I was special and unique because I could escape the clutches of a phenomenon that has already seized the majority of our Earth's population. I thought I could be free from the nuisance known as love. I was wrong.
"Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind, and therefore winged Cupid is painted blind."
I really hate that statement.
July 24th
8:15 am
Just getting ready to leave the camp that really changed me. I feel more confident about myself and more charismatic too. I hope that this feeling would stay with me and make me become so much more popular. I really enjoy my stay at this camp and would love to come back.
July 24th
1:32pm
Even the airport felt more alive now after the camp. I met this girl, Rei, at the airport. She was part of my camp too, but before I had never mustered up the courage to speak to her. But I have got nothing to lose and would probably never get to see her again so I decided to chat with her. As it turns out, she was a really nice person and we had a lot in common. Although she was half japanese, she did not know how to speak or write in Japanese and I showed her. Guess that's the first time learning Japanese ever had any use for me. We shared funny stories and had some food at the airport Subway. Actually i barely touched my sandwich, just watched her eat instead. I find that she is so cute in every way possible that I simply have to ask her number.
She did give her number to me, and we got a photo together as well. I watched her leave on her flight to Colorado while I made my way to a flight to Vancouver. I couldn't stop thinking about her on the flight back. Dear god what is happening to me? Am I actually beginning to have some feelings for a girl i chatted with for a mere 2 hours?
July 25th
10:35 am
Called her really early today. I know I might seem desperate but I really hoped that she has not forgotten me yet. She was not home and I neglected to leave a message. But that was the one and last time I actually dared to call her. The fear of rejection has been deeply rooted in my consciousness and I was pretty certain that I could not handle another rejection, especially right now.
July 25th
3:40 pm
Stalked her down on Facebook. That is really not my style, for after all I usually wait for people to add me instead. Guess I am really falling for her then... What am I to do?
July 26th
12:55
Had a pleasant chat with her on facebook, even though she seems more quiet online than she is in real life. I really wanted to admit my feelings to her, but once again, I fear rejection so much that I can not bear telling her my true thoughts towards her. I know I sound pathetic and cowardly but I always feel that she is much more popular than I am and would probably just find me nothing more than an interesting friend.
July 27th
2:16 pm
Karma is a B****. Completely convinced of that now. I have never (and I thought I would never) believe in love at first sight. Ironic that it has happened to me huh?
I used to laugh at one of my friends after he fell heads over heels in love with a Japanese transfer student who left abruptly. I use to laugh at him for still having feelings for someone who is half way across the continent. Now I am not so sure. Rei still lives more than 1500 miles away from me, seperated by a country border as well.
That was another reason why I did not confess my feelings towards her. I have never(and never will) believe that love can last despite long distances. Even if she does like me, I can probably only visit her once or twice a year and even then only a couple of days. Meanwhile, I am sure more attractive and charming guys are abundant in her hometown. I would never want her to suffer being trapped in love with someone so far away while falling for someone else living close to her. Both of us would be in a lot of pain that way.
July 28th
She is gradually becoming less and less responsive to my facebook posts, I believe she is slowly beginning to forget me. Heck I dont blame her, we only met for about 2 hours, how can I expect her to remember me forever. I only hope she still remembers what a fun time we shared at the airport. My last message to her was:
"I'm always online, whenever you need me, I'll always be there, and I only ask that you think of me every once in a while and that brief but fun time we shared. I'm always online and I'll always be."
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine
(sighs finally done. I know it sounds super cheesy but every single word written was heartfelt and through personal experience. You can mock at my writing but do not mock at my experience please.)