PrinceMyshkin
10-06-2009, 01:02 PM
I believe
in our need for “God”
or a god or a godlike
something but need,
on a somewhat lower level,
has never exactly worked for me.
I’ve needed a woman.
I knew approximately
her dimensions, the cast
of her mind, her unpredictable
but wholly spontaneous
sense of humour.
I believed in–I needed–her
as deeply as an acolyte
teetering on the edge of his faith,
trying to hold on to it
as if it were the last patch
of solid earth, but
did that produce her
(or God)? No, she came,
if at all, from some other direction,
in some other form and she,
apparently, wanted to love me
or she did and I wanted
to love her, but wanting to love
and loving are as different
as chalk and cheese.
Note, in advance: to Virgil. I'm aware that the last line is a banal cliche but felt that to try for something more original might lead to an attempt at 'cleverness' or something flashy...
in our need for “God”
or a god or a godlike
something but need,
on a somewhat lower level,
has never exactly worked for me.
I’ve needed a woman.
I knew approximately
her dimensions, the cast
of her mind, her unpredictable
but wholly spontaneous
sense of humour.
I believed in–I needed–her
as deeply as an acolyte
teetering on the edge of his faith,
trying to hold on to it
as if it were the last patch
of solid earth, but
did that produce her
(or God)? No, she came,
if at all, from some other direction,
in some other form and she,
apparently, wanted to love me
or she did and I wanted
to love her, but wanting to love
and loving are as different
as chalk and cheese.
Note, in advance: to Virgil. I'm aware that the last line is a banal cliche but felt that to try for something more original might lead to an attempt at 'cleverness' or something flashy...