Raymond Conant
08-29-2009, 04:20 PM
IT WAS A COLD CLEAR DAY
It was a cold clear day as I began my trip to the north west and the weather channel said we should expect bad weather thru the mountain pass. So I was not surprised when it began to turn to crap..Snowing harder now and with the wind out of the North and I was going west I guess you know it was very hard to keep on the road when all at once I seen this little car over turned and in the middle of the road ..Not wanting to stop as I knew if I did I would never get going again ..Then I seen this very little hand kind of waving in the air from the back seat ..I was startled by it I believed it to be a small child I would guess around 1 or so ..So I eased my truck to a stop and set the brakes and darted to the over turned car and as I reached it I could see the waving hand was indeed a child still in a car seat in the back seat and her mother in the front seat bloody and bruised ..Taking off my coat I quickly but it on the child ..I leaned over to see if the mother of this child was indeed alive and by the grace of our loving father in heaven she was ..I was able to get her and the baby to my truck and went back to the over turned car to pick up as much of there belonging as I could ..It was snowing very hard and the wind blowing so hard I could barely reach my truck ..As I entered my truck I seen the mother of the baby awake and caring to her baby ..As I shock the snow and ice from me I handed her all the belonging I removed from the over turned car ..I was surprised to see no traffic going east or west on I-94 in Montana .I told her where she was and who she was there with me ..I explained to her that her car was a total loss and I was not at all certain of what if any injury she or the baby had ..But I told her that the baby appeared ok but that all that was the least of our problems ..I told her I believe the pass had been closed behind us as I have not seen any one for over 1 hr now ..
I could tell I was scaring her with the news so I tried to explain that we were ok food and water to last about 2 days if we take it easy ..She said she wanted to stop back at Billing but that it had been snowing and blowing so hard she missed the exit ..Then she started to look around in my truck to see if it was large enough to house us all tell we got help ..What I thought was the baby’s mother turned out to be her Granny ..Or so she told me anyway.
I could tell she had more questions but she wanted to let me know there would be people looking for her soon ..I knew she was telling me that so if I was a crazy I would not try anything ..I laughed and said look I will not harm you .But if you give me your word that you will not hurt me I said with a chuckle ..I could tell that made her smile a little and she said with a straight face and said gee if I have to be good I will she said ..I told her my name was Raymond and my side kick was Duke he is a Australian blue heeler and only a year old ..but that she need not worry about him he love children and women ..
The time was passing fast and we talked about every thing as I could tell she was unsure what the sleeping arrangements were ..II said Sandy you and the baby can sleep in the upper bunk if she was tired ..I told her I would set out in the drivers seat tell she was dressed or undressed for bed it would be fine with me anyway she wished and that once she was up in the upper bed to just let me know and then I too would get ready fore bed ..
As I sat waiting I could see the snow piling up against the truck and the wind was blowing and was a full blown blizzard and I knew the road crews would not even try to clean the roads tell the storm let up and I was not sure just how long that would be ..we are all sleeping now and morning would soon be here and with luck it would have slowed down ... ..
It is now the morning of the 2nd day ..
I was up very early as I had another bad dream the same dream but it is now deferent at least 4 now. It was just yesterday I had told my self that if it not 4 my dog Duke I would just not straighten the wheel of my truck when I get to the twisting curves at 4 the of July summit and pass ..But it is deferent now .. As I set in the driver seat I could hear the steady breathing of the granny and baby ..All at once I began thinking of happier time gone by when my own children were small and dependent on I and my wife 4 every thing ..Yes I now I am just day dreaming but .
As I set deep in thought Sandy the beautiful baby girls granny said .
What are the conditions like this morning ??I jumped as she sounded like someone in a cave you know echoing ..She said I am so sorry I did not mean to brake into your deep thoughts ..I said oh it is fine just thinking of a much better time. Sandy said we can talk about it a while if you like as the baby is still sleeping ..I told her that I think I will not yet but if we are here long I fear I will find the need to talk about it as I know the thoughts of that time will keep entering my mind .. She said she understood and that she too had things that controlled her memory as well . I thought I was just thinking in my mind but all of a sudden she said .Yes I believe my memory's would equal the ones that I kept in mine as well...
Even though I really did not mean to get into her life anymore then I was all ready she began telling me .Oh I bet we talked for 2 maybe 3 hrs before the baby began to fuss .What she done next really blow me away ..
As I know I am not the sharpest tack in the jar but from every thing I new about baby;\'s and there granny's it was impossible for her to give this baby milk from her Brest no matter how much she wanted to feed her . But yet AS SURE AS I AM TELLING YOU THIS STORY SHE lifted her shirt and began to feed the baby ..I could tell she was puzzled and she said what is wrong haven't you ever seen a baby Brest fed before ??Well when I could shut my mouth long enough to swallow I said well yes mam I have but I turned 54 2 weeks ago and I have never seen a baby's granny best feed her grandchild.. All at once she gasped and then smiled. Well you see Ray I kina lied to you as I did not want you to think bad of me butttttt AND THEN SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE HAD THIS BABY HER SELF AND THAT SHE WAS NOT THE BABY'S GRANNY BUT HER MOTHER ..After I got what little courage I still had I asked how would this make me feel bad about you ??
Then she began
Well Raymond she said I am a 44 year old single mom with no way to care fore this beautiful baby .And that she was on her way to Helena Montana to turn the baby over to a couple that wanted to raise her as there own ..Wow this women every since she woke this morning was making me crazy with all kinds of surprises. I told her that what ever the problem she was having providing for her that she can stop before she hands this beautiful little blue eyed Angel over ..As I know it will hurt you much longer then a empty belly or a dirty shirt or going with out a few thing in her life ..
I know I really have no business trying to convince you to reconsider but As you did tell me I feel like you wanted me too talk you out of it anyway. As the baby finished eating and she removed her Brest from the baby's mouth she began to cry .Wow now I did it I just put my noise where it should never had been but I only added to the struggle of this beautiful mother of this provocatively beautiful baby girl witch by the way was named indeed Angel ..Avery fitting name. What felt like days as we talked about other things too but we had only been up for just a few short hours ..I told her that we should not hope of a early rescue as the snow was now to the bottom of my driver doors window .I told her not to worry that I have full tanks of fuel and that if I keep the stacks clean we could run the truck 4 a week or better if it was needed And that I had a frying pan that was electric and I had just supplied my refrigerator. And I have about 3 cases of Sam's club bottled water ..and that I also had some self warming k rations that I buy from the army surplus store as I have been running the mountains 4 a very long time and I told her I would make sure that her and Angel was well taken care of to the best of my ability ..The snow just kept on falling ... And falling and the wind blow so hard that my truck and trailer lost the ground and the lights on the trailer flashed on and off ..As this began to happen Sandy and the baby were both scared ..And in all honesty it scared the crap out of me as well so to calm nerves we talked more I told Sandy to take the baby an go up to the upper bunk so they were away from all possible glass braking. I to went to my buck as well ,,The baby finely quitted down and was sleeping .I wish I felt good enough to just sleep through it but no such luck it just blow and rocked the truck even harder as I was able to drift off to sleep I felt Sandy lay down beside her and the baby ..I opened my eyes and Sandy said please Ray if you really don't mind may I please stay with you down hear ..What did I say ? what could I say this women you have to understand she is a breath taking beautiful and very sexy looking women I said to her it is ok ..Sandy lay that little bundle life next too me and then she climbed over me I said what the heck are you doing ?? She said well if I am going to ask a man if I can get in his bed I will lay where I want and that with this storm I want to be between you and the wall of this truck lol ..
Angel had her little hands in the hair of my chest and when I realized THE PAIN ON MY CHEST WAS NO DREAM YAOWWWW. Sandy woke and seen what this little hair ripping monster was doing she oh my and grabbed that little angel with the vice like grip with her went 2 hands full of chest hair ..I must tell you right now if I would have none she was going to kiss my owe I would have really got busy pulling hair from all over my body lol ..I no I am being a little bad but what the heck she really is a very sweet hearted women ..We lay talking and she finely got to the big question ..ARE YOU MARRIED RAY ??I SAID YES ..That was a big freeze now .I told her that my wife and I have been married 35 year and I have not been home in her bed 4 over 2 years ..Sandy said what why not ?? I told her to try to remember when you startled me early this morning ?? She said yes will this is what I was thinking about ..I was not at all sure I wanted to tell you that as I feared it would make you uncomfortable .She began to surprise the crap out of me ..All at once she pulled my face straight to her rather large and quit firm Brest ..Oh I know what you are thinking but it was not like that ..She made me feel like a little boy with scraped knees not like a man with rugged good looks lol ..But I guess I will start hear lol ..Not fair ..That is something I could have more then 1 answer lol...But I fear if I was to tell you and you to grant my wish that it would be something you would regret ..And I am so excited that I may not think with my brain or heart ..And how you look at me and how you think of me is so very important too me . I thought she might laugh at me and think I was being funny but with the look on my face .
She began to cry uncontrollably. I did not have a clue of what to say to ease her crying so I just pulled her close and softly said it will be ok I did not mean to cause you pain .
She now pushed her self away and looked me straight in to my eyes and said to me ..
You really don’t know why I cry do you ?? I said I guessed it was something I said and if you would tell me what I said I would ether explain or take it back. And now like a snap of a finger she now was laughing just as hard as she had been crying.. I was about to cry my self as I truly did not no what in the HELL I did..
So Sandy began to explain what had just happen.. She said you never asked me why I was a single mom so I guess you would not know ..I told her I really did not think it was any of my business .. So she began to tell her story ..She said that she was driving home one night from an relized she needed eggs and milk so she pulled in to a IGA food story it was late and very dark as there was a storm brewing so it was extra dark ..She said she was walking back to her car and she was not really thinking about anything important so she was unaware of the two men stalking her.. But she said when she relized they were there she began to move faster when all at once one grabbed my arm and the other put some kind of sack over my whole body and throe me into my car and started to drive away She started to move and try to get free when one of them said be stile ***** or I will cut your throat here and then laughed ..As we pulled to a stop something hit knocked me out and ever time I started to come around the hit me a gain.
Oh I am a big girl and thought I could handle anything at this stage in my life but not this after they had there way with me time and time again and when they tired of me they hit me in the head with a club and locked me in the drunk of my car ..And as they started to walk away one yield back and said ***** if you start to scream I will burn u alive it your trunk ..
Dam little girl I am so sorry ..And she regained her self and went on ..She said she was in her trunk fore about 13 hrs before the police fond me ..As my husband waited to reported me missing tell me missing the next day.. She said she lay in soiled and bloody cloths. When they opened the trunk I seen my husband looking down at me not with loving and caring eyes it was sick pitty.months now have passed and I relized I was with child..
And that was the end of my life the way I new was over. So having been ask to leave if I was with child it was not my husbands because he was clipped .. So time now was flying by and I was getting bigger and I had to decide wealth to keep her or not ..And then when she deliver her Angel I mean she was alone ..And 1 year and 3 days later was when you fond me
I see ..But I thought you were a little mixed up. I leaned over her and looked into her big beautiful brown eyes and told her I truly was sorry for the pain men in general have caused her. Sandy said I really think you are but you have no need to be sorry I don't really even know but I have felt more love and caring respect then I have ever felt before .I said so can you tell me how a married man such as my self be part of your's and Angel's lives’ ??
I got a lump in my throat as I seen her begin to bite her lip in thought as I already knew the answer to that very stupid question ..This is her words exact . Well Denny I know what I want to say but I also know what I must say ..I said wait stop don't tell me I would rather not know at all then hear the words I feel you are about speak ..
And as luck would have it Angel began to fuss a little so Sandy had to attend her ..I thought this would be a good time to see if the snow had started to lighten up ..But to my surprise and I might add happy surprise it was snowing even harder .I told her that I had to walk Duke and I would be right back ..As I slipped in to my boots and started to stand she grabbed my arm and turned me to face her ..And she said I don't know what will happen in time to come but I know I want you in our live’s.And then she kissed me like I have not kissed in many years as we broke apart I said wow ..But I really do have to walk Duke or we will have to dipper him too lol.
I and Duke got out into the wind and blowing snow and to my surprise I was not cold at all ..I started to talk to Duke about what had been happing.. I know you say what do I hope to hear from him well I am not sure but it felt good to talk to him ..You see I met and married my wife when she was 17 years old and we just had our 35 anniversary. And in 33 years of me trucking I never ever cheated on my wife or really ever wanted to ..But I doooooo really I doooo ..All I can hope is that she is strong enough for us both ...
It did not take but a second to see as we climbed back into the truck this was really going to be HARD as I walked in so fast because it was cold out I interrupted her as she was changing and Dam she is really beautiful ..Wow I said baby girl I am very sorry and she looked over her right shoulder and said are you really ..AHHHHH
I wanted to think about this answer before I opened my big mouth ..After thinking on my answer I said ..Yes it really dose mater to me of your opinion of me so I would have to say yes I truly am sorry I walked in on you and your privacy. And then I pulled the curtain between the cab and sleeper so that she could get dressed with out me starring at her ..I must admit I surprised even my self of my reply ..The day was passing very slowly as the darn snow is still falling like it would never stop .
As I set in the driver seat of my truck I began to think just how long I have been unhappy or even in the arms of a women be fore today ..I know I should try to think of my children and just how very hurt they would be if I were to give into my animal graving of attention. I really don't worry about what my wife would say or do as she and I have kept the family together fore the sake of them and grand children ..
All at once I slipped back in the thought of that little Angel. And how loosely her life will be with out a father figure to love and help care fore her .. But as I set thinking it surprised me when Sandy brought Angel and lay her in my arms ..Wow it really has been a long time fore one of these things were in my arms ..As I was talking to Angel and making funny faces and tickle with my whiskers and she laughed ..Oh no help Sandy please help me here Angel reached up and grabbed 2 hands full of my chin whiskers.Oh my GOD Sandy said ..
The harder Sandy pulled the tighter Angel held on and to even make it worse Sand was laughing so hard she was crying I said girl this hurts and even if it is funny please get her off me .. Wow my darn cell phone was ringing the first time in 2 days ..It was my daughter she said Dad are you ok ?? I said yes why ?? I am snowed in here mountains in Montana but I am ok I have water and food 4 about 2 more days if it last that long ..I said darling why are you so worried I go this way and been snowed in many times ..
Yes Dad I know but in 33 years I have never missed a phone call at mid night of the morning of my BIRTH DAY from you before ..OH I SAID CRAP I HAVE JUST LOST MY MIND I GUESS ..PLEASE FORGIVE ME BABY GIRL .. And that was when my baby girl said Dad have you fond another women ?? Wow I thought to my self have I ?? I told her no why do you ask ?? And she said it is just a very bad feeling is all .Mnnnnnn
After the phone call I was a little put back and busy thinking when Sandy asked are you ok ?? I said yes I am fine it is just being snowed in fore this long has me thinking is all ..As fast as it came from my mouth Sandy said . Is it about me and Angel ?? If it is we will be ok and if you are worried that I would say anything to anyone don't ..I have never met a man with so much on his mind but yet remain a warm and loving friend to people you have never seen before ..
I said do you remember I feel I have known you in time that has long gone by and perhaps even another world ??
I looked out and I seen a man on a snow mobile and flagged him over to the truck ..I rolled down the window and said boy are we ever glade to see you ..The man said I am Bill I work for the Montana hwy dept and trying to make sure ever one out here that has been caught in the blizzard is still ok as it will another 24 before the plows and blowers will get this far ..
I asked him how far are we from Helena ?? Bill said about 75 miles ..Bill asked how my food and fuel was ??I TOLD HIM STILL HAD OVER A HALF A TANK OF FUEL BUT THE FOOD IS GETTING LOW .. Then he said he was really not sure just how long it would take to get the crews up in this sector ..I said I see and I have a women and small child with me her car is over turned just back about 1/4 mile ,,Bill said he seen the car and when he seen no driver that he had been afraid the driver may have dune a stupid thing and started to walk out .
I said no she is here and fine but if you don't mind getting word to her family or at leased the party she was in rout to see ??Bill said he would be happy to help in any way he could ..But when I asked Sandy if she wanted her husband to know that she is fine she promptly told me HELL no ok I said but how about the women you were in rout to meet about this little Angel ?? Sandy again said no that she had changed her mind with a smile of pride in her decision I turned back to Bill and told him she would rather wait tell we were rolling again but thanks anyway ..
As Bill was about to go he said that was a good thing you did for her and the baby and that he wrote down our location as to let the road crews know where we are and to expedite them along ..See yea he yelled as he rode away and with a wave he was gone ..I turned back to look at Sandy and she was crying I told not to cry that every thing is on a new track fore her and the first one was to do what she is now doing ..
Sandy said I don't know what will happen but what ever happens she will have her baby and very thankful that we are now life long friends ..I said you know this has been a HOOT ..Sandy started to laugh so hard I thought she would wet on her self ..I said what is it let me in I could use a good laugh too ..And she said it is you silly that is funny and that she had not herd the term Hoot since the 1970's but she added quickly. I think you are so 70's kind of man and that she believed if all men were froze in time it should be then as men loved there women and most women loved being a women and to just love and stand by her man ..
Well all the laughter is now over and we could see the road crews coming up the road behind us .And do you know I really was not glade as I feel we have really gotten very close and was about to tell Sandy what this time with her and Angel was something I was not sure I wanted to end but she held up her hand and said ..With tears running down her very pretty face and the baby sleeping in her arms she said ..Don't say it I know you are caught up in emotion right now and might say something you don't mean ..Sandy also said you do some thinking long hard thinking before you say anything ..She said that at this time I have not said or done anything you may regret later ..I just sat there with my heart in my hands and realized she may be Wright .....
And with that having been said we were about to roll again and with the end of trip fore Sandy and Angel being only a very short 75 miles away ..I slipped her my cell number and we have been through a lot here and even if it is not to be I want you to have this number as I want to stay in touch as she and Angel will always be deep in my thoughts and warmly in my heart ...Sandy accepted my number and was about to say something but then stopped ..As we rolled in to Helena I think we both were now crying but we new that the adventure was now over ..........
As we rolled into town it was so odd .It was like a person that has been camping fore weeks you know every thing look's so big and clear like every thing is to big fore the place it is setting and the colors are so bright and clean ..It was beautiful but yet the worst site I have ever seen because I knew Sandy could not or will not be anything other then a very good friend ...I told her that I was going to let her have my business bank card and that her and the baby can use it to restart there lives .. I told that I would cover her and the babies needs 4 a month ..
Sandy naturally said that they would be fine that I need not be worried that she knew now where her life must go ..But I insisted that she take it and use it to get started and to please keep me in her life and in her thought's ..Then Sandy looked at me and said ..We will always be nothing but very good friends ever will we ?? I said as beautiful and as sweet of a person she is and that I feel very close to her and Angel but that I am very sure very good friends will be all we can ever be ..As my wife and I may not have the best relation ship just now but we have been married fore 35 very happy years and if it takes us 10 years to work out our problems I truly think it would still be worth the chance of it working ..
At this time I picked up her bags and some of the baby things out of the truck and moved them to a motel room and set them on the floor ,And turned to face her and she stood there with tears streaking her face and then she said this will stay with her only .. I said you know what I decided to tell my wife every thing that has happened and what I intend to do for you and little ms Angel here ..As in my heart of hearts we nor I has done anything to be ashamed of ..And if we are to succeed then I want it to be from the strength of the love we have for each other and not to lie just to keep her .
And with us giving each other a friendly hug and a respectful kiss I walked out and got into my truck and left ..And do you know that was the first time in a year I COULD NOT WAIT TO GET HOME AND TELL MY WIFE THAT I NOT ONLY LOVE HER BUT THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH HER AND WILL BE FORE EVER AND A DAY IF SHE WILL HAVE ME ..This will end this story ps. I decided to name this story ..A SNOW ANGEL IN THE MONTANA PASS
It was a cold clear day as I began my trip to the north west and the weather channel said we should expect bad weather thru the mountain pass. So I was not surprised when it began to turn to crap..Snowing harder now and with the wind out of the North and I was going west I guess you know it was very hard to keep on the road when all at once I seen this little car over turned and in the middle of the road ..Not wanting to stop as I knew if I did I would never get going again ..Then I seen this very little hand kind of waving in the air from the back seat ..I was startled by it I believed it to be a small child I would guess around 1 or so ..So I eased my truck to a stop and set the brakes and darted to the over turned car and as I reached it I could see the waving hand was indeed a child still in a car seat in the back seat and her mother in the front seat bloody and bruised ..Taking off my coat I quickly but it on the child ..I leaned over to see if the mother of this child was indeed alive and by the grace of our loving father in heaven she was ..I was able to get her and the baby to my truck and went back to the over turned car to pick up as much of there belonging as I could ..It was snowing very hard and the wind blowing so hard I could barely reach my truck ..As I entered my truck I seen the mother of the baby awake and caring to her baby ..As I shock the snow and ice from me I handed her all the belonging I removed from the over turned car ..I was surprised to see no traffic going east or west on I-94 in Montana .I told her where she was and who she was there with me ..I explained to her that her car was a total loss and I was not at all certain of what if any injury she or the baby had ..But I told her that the baby appeared ok but that all that was the least of our problems ..I told her I believe the pass had been closed behind us as I have not seen any one for over 1 hr now ..
I could tell I was scaring her with the news so I tried to explain that we were ok food and water to last about 2 days if we take it easy ..She said she wanted to stop back at Billing but that it had been snowing and blowing so hard she missed the exit ..Then she started to look around in my truck to see if it was large enough to house us all tell we got help ..What I thought was the baby’s mother turned out to be her Granny ..Or so she told me anyway.
I could tell she had more questions but she wanted to let me know there would be people looking for her soon ..I knew she was telling me that so if I was a crazy I would not try anything ..I laughed and said look I will not harm you .But if you give me your word that you will not hurt me I said with a chuckle ..I could tell that made her smile a little and she said with a straight face and said gee if I have to be good I will she said ..I told her my name was Raymond and my side kick was Duke he is a Australian blue heeler and only a year old ..but that she need not worry about him he love children and women ..
The time was passing fast and we talked about every thing as I could tell she was unsure what the sleeping arrangements were ..II said Sandy you and the baby can sleep in the upper bunk if she was tired ..I told her I would set out in the drivers seat tell she was dressed or undressed for bed it would be fine with me anyway she wished and that once she was up in the upper bed to just let me know and then I too would get ready fore bed ..
As I sat waiting I could see the snow piling up against the truck and the wind was blowing and was a full blown blizzard and I knew the road crews would not even try to clean the roads tell the storm let up and I was not sure just how long that would be ..we are all sleeping now and morning would soon be here and with luck it would have slowed down ... ..
It is now the morning of the 2nd day ..
I was up very early as I had another bad dream the same dream but it is now deferent at least 4 now. It was just yesterday I had told my self that if it not 4 my dog Duke I would just not straighten the wheel of my truck when I get to the twisting curves at 4 the of July summit and pass ..But it is deferent now .. As I set in the driver seat I could hear the steady breathing of the granny and baby ..All at once I began thinking of happier time gone by when my own children were small and dependent on I and my wife 4 every thing ..Yes I now I am just day dreaming but .
As I set deep in thought Sandy the beautiful baby girls granny said .
What are the conditions like this morning ??I jumped as she sounded like someone in a cave you know echoing ..She said I am so sorry I did not mean to brake into your deep thoughts ..I said oh it is fine just thinking of a much better time. Sandy said we can talk about it a while if you like as the baby is still sleeping ..I told her that I think I will not yet but if we are here long I fear I will find the need to talk about it as I know the thoughts of that time will keep entering my mind .. She said she understood and that she too had things that controlled her memory as well . I thought I was just thinking in my mind but all of a sudden she said .Yes I believe my memory's would equal the ones that I kept in mine as well...
Even though I really did not mean to get into her life anymore then I was all ready she began telling me .Oh I bet we talked for 2 maybe 3 hrs before the baby began to fuss .What she done next really blow me away ..
As I know I am not the sharpest tack in the jar but from every thing I new about baby;\'s and there granny's it was impossible for her to give this baby milk from her Brest no matter how much she wanted to feed her . But yet AS SURE AS I AM TELLING YOU THIS STORY SHE lifted her shirt and began to feed the baby ..I could tell she was puzzled and she said what is wrong haven't you ever seen a baby Brest fed before ??Well when I could shut my mouth long enough to swallow I said well yes mam I have but I turned 54 2 weeks ago and I have never seen a baby's granny best feed her grandchild.. All at once she gasped and then smiled. Well you see Ray I kina lied to you as I did not want you to think bad of me butttttt AND THEN SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE HAD THIS BABY HER SELF AND THAT SHE WAS NOT THE BABY'S GRANNY BUT HER MOTHER ..After I got what little courage I still had I asked how would this make me feel bad about you ??
Then she began
Well Raymond she said I am a 44 year old single mom with no way to care fore this beautiful baby .And that she was on her way to Helena Montana to turn the baby over to a couple that wanted to raise her as there own ..Wow this women every since she woke this morning was making me crazy with all kinds of surprises. I told her that what ever the problem she was having providing for her that she can stop before she hands this beautiful little blue eyed Angel over ..As I know it will hurt you much longer then a empty belly or a dirty shirt or going with out a few thing in her life ..
I know I really have no business trying to convince you to reconsider but As you did tell me I feel like you wanted me too talk you out of it anyway. As the baby finished eating and she removed her Brest from the baby's mouth she began to cry .Wow now I did it I just put my noise where it should never had been but I only added to the struggle of this beautiful mother of this provocatively beautiful baby girl witch by the way was named indeed Angel ..Avery fitting name. What felt like days as we talked about other things too but we had only been up for just a few short hours ..I told her that we should not hope of a early rescue as the snow was now to the bottom of my driver doors window .I told her not to worry that I have full tanks of fuel and that if I keep the stacks clean we could run the truck 4 a week or better if it was needed And that I had a frying pan that was electric and I had just supplied my refrigerator. And I have about 3 cases of Sam's club bottled water ..and that I also had some self warming k rations that I buy from the army surplus store as I have been running the mountains 4 a very long time and I told her I would make sure that her and Angel was well taken care of to the best of my ability ..The snow just kept on falling ... And falling and the wind blow so hard that my truck and trailer lost the ground and the lights on the trailer flashed on and off ..As this began to happen Sandy and the baby were both scared ..And in all honesty it scared the crap out of me as well so to calm nerves we talked more I told Sandy to take the baby an go up to the upper bunk so they were away from all possible glass braking. I to went to my buck as well ,,The baby finely quitted down and was sleeping .I wish I felt good enough to just sleep through it but no such luck it just blow and rocked the truck even harder as I was able to drift off to sleep I felt Sandy lay down beside her and the baby ..I opened my eyes and Sandy said please Ray if you really don't mind may I please stay with you down hear ..What did I say ? what could I say this women you have to understand she is a breath taking beautiful and very sexy looking women I said to her it is ok ..Sandy lay that little bundle life next too me and then she climbed over me I said what the heck are you doing ?? She said well if I am going to ask a man if I can get in his bed I will lay where I want and that with this storm I want to be between you and the wall of this truck lol ..
Angel had her little hands in the hair of my chest and when I realized THE PAIN ON MY CHEST WAS NO DREAM YAOWWWW. Sandy woke and seen what this little hair ripping monster was doing she oh my and grabbed that little angel with the vice like grip with her went 2 hands full of chest hair ..I must tell you right now if I would have none she was going to kiss my owe I would have really got busy pulling hair from all over my body lol ..I no I am being a little bad but what the heck she really is a very sweet hearted women ..We lay talking and she finely got to the big question ..ARE YOU MARRIED RAY ??I SAID YES ..That was a big freeze now .I told her that my wife and I have been married 35 year and I have not been home in her bed 4 over 2 years ..Sandy said what why not ?? I told her to try to remember when you startled me early this morning ?? She said yes will this is what I was thinking about ..I was not at all sure I wanted to tell you that as I feared it would make you uncomfortable .She began to surprise the crap out of me ..All at once she pulled my face straight to her rather large and quit firm Brest ..Oh I know what you are thinking but it was not like that ..She made me feel like a little boy with scraped knees not like a man with rugged good looks lol ..But I guess I will start hear lol ..Not fair ..That is something I could have more then 1 answer lol...But I fear if I was to tell you and you to grant my wish that it would be something you would regret ..And I am so excited that I may not think with my brain or heart ..And how you look at me and how you think of me is so very important too me . I thought she might laugh at me and think I was being funny but with the look on my face .
She began to cry uncontrollably. I did not have a clue of what to say to ease her crying so I just pulled her close and softly said it will be ok I did not mean to cause you pain .
She now pushed her self away and looked me straight in to my eyes and said to me ..
You really don’t know why I cry do you ?? I said I guessed it was something I said and if you would tell me what I said I would ether explain or take it back. And now like a snap of a finger she now was laughing just as hard as she had been crying.. I was about to cry my self as I truly did not no what in the HELL I did..
So Sandy began to explain what had just happen.. She said you never asked me why I was a single mom so I guess you would not know ..I told her I really did not think it was any of my business .. So she began to tell her story ..She said that she was driving home one night from an relized she needed eggs and milk so she pulled in to a IGA food story it was late and very dark as there was a storm brewing so it was extra dark ..She said she was walking back to her car and she was not really thinking about anything important so she was unaware of the two men stalking her.. But she said when she relized they were there she began to move faster when all at once one grabbed my arm and the other put some kind of sack over my whole body and throe me into my car and started to drive away She started to move and try to get free when one of them said be stile ***** or I will cut your throat here and then laughed ..As we pulled to a stop something hit knocked me out and ever time I started to come around the hit me a gain.
Oh I am a big girl and thought I could handle anything at this stage in my life but not this after they had there way with me time and time again and when they tired of me they hit me in the head with a club and locked me in the drunk of my car ..And as they started to walk away one yield back and said ***** if you start to scream I will burn u alive it your trunk ..
Dam little girl I am so sorry ..And she regained her self and went on ..She said she was in her trunk fore about 13 hrs before the police fond me ..As my husband waited to reported me missing tell me missing the next day.. She said she lay in soiled and bloody cloths. When they opened the trunk I seen my husband looking down at me not with loving and caring eyes it was sick pitty.months now have passed and I relized I was with child..
And that was the end of my life the way I new was over. So having been ask to leave if I was with child it was not my husbands because he was clipped .. So time now was flying by and I was getting bigger and I had to decide wealth to keep her or not ..And then when she deliver her Angel I mean she was alone ..And 1 year and 3 days later was when you fond me
I see ..But I thought you were a little mixed up. I leaned over her and looked into her big beautiful brown eyes and told her I truly was sorry for the pain men in general have caused her. Sandy said I really think you are but you have no need to be sorry I don't really even know but I have felt more love and caring respect then I have ever felt before .I said so can you tell me how a married man such as my self be part of your's and Angel's lives’ ??
I got a lump in my throat as I seen her begin to bite her lip in thought as I already knew the answer to that very stupid question ..This is her words exact . Well Denny I know what I want to say but I also know what I must say ..I said wait stop don't tell me I would rather not know at all then hear the words I feel you are about speak ..
And as luck would have it Angel began to fuss a little so Sandy had to attend her ..I thought this would be a good time to see if the snow had started to lighten up ..But to my surprise and I might add happy surprise it was snowing even harder .I told her that I had to walk Duke and I would be right back ..As I slipped in to my boots and started to stand she grabbed my arm and turned me to face her ..And she said I don't know what will happen in time to come but I know I want you in our live’s.And then she kissed me like I have not kissed in many years as we broke apart I said wow ..But I really do have to walk Duke or we will have to dipper him too lol.
I and Duke got out into the wind and blowing snow and to my surprise I was not cold at all ..I started to talk to Duke about what had been happing.. I know you say what do I hope to hear from him well I am not sure but it felt good to talk to him ..You see I met and married my wife when she was 17 years old and we just had our 35 anniversary. And in 33 years of me trucking I never ever cheated on my wife or really ever wanted to ..But I doooooo really I doooo ..All I can hope is that she is strong enough for us both ...
It did not take but a second to see as we climbed back into the truck this was really going to be HARD as I walked in so fast because it was cold out I interrupted her as she was changing and Dam she is really beautiful ..Wow I said baby girl I am very sorry and she looked over her right shoulder and said are you really ..AHHHHH
I wanted to think about this answer before I opened my big mouth ..After thinking on my answer I said ..Yes it really dose mater to me of your opinion of me so I would have to say yes I truly am sorry I walked in on you and your privacy. And then I pulled the curtain between the cab and sleeper so that she could get dressed with out me starring at her ..I must admit I surprised even my self of my reply ..The day was passing very slowly as the darn snow is still falling like it would never stop .
As I set in the driver seat of my truck I began to think just how long I have been unhappy or even in the arms of a women be fore today ..I know I should try to think of my children and just how very hurt they would be if I were to give into my animal graving of attention. I really don't worry about what my wife would say or do as she and I have kept the family together fore the sake of them and grand children ..
All at once I slipped back in the thought of that little Angel. And how loosely her life will be with out a father figure to love and help care fore her .. But as I set thinking it surprised me when Sandy brought Angel and lay her in my arms ..Wow it really has been a long time fore one of these things were in my arms ..As I was talking to Angel and making funny faces and tickle with my whiskers and she laughed ..Oh no help Sandy please help me here Angel reached up and grabbed 2 hands full of my chin whiskers.Oh my GOD Sandy said ..
The harder Sandy pulled the tighter Angel held on and to even make it worse Sand was laughing so hard she was crying I said girl this hurts and even if it is funny please get her off me .. Wow my darn cell phone was ringing the first time in 2 days ..It was my daughter she said Dad are you ok ?? I said yes why ?? I am snowed in here mountains in Montana but I am ok I have water and food 4 about 2 more days if it last that long ..I said darling why are you so worried I go this way and been snowed in many times ..
Yes Dad I know but in 33 years I have never missed a phone call at mid night of the morning of my BIRTH DAY from you before ..OH I SAID CRAP I HAVE JUST LOST MY MIND I GUESS ..PLEASE FORGIVE ME BABY GIRL .. And that was when my baby girl said Dad have you fond another women ?? Wow I thought to my self have I ?? I told her no why do you ask ?? And she said it is just a very bad feeling is all .Mnnnnnn
After the phone call I was a little put back and busy thinking when Sandy asked are you ok ?? I said yes I am fine it is just being snowed in fore this long has me thinking is all ..As fast as it came from my mouth Sandy said . Is it about me and Angel ?? If it is we will be ok and if you are worried that I would say anything to anyone don't ..I have never met a man with so much on his mind but yet remain a warm and loving friend to people you have never seen before ..
I said do you remember I feel I have known you in time that has long gone by and perhaps even another world ??
I looked out and I seen a man on a snow mobile and flagged him over to the truck ..I rolled down the window and said boy are we ever glade to see you ..The man said I am Bill I work for the Montana hwy dept and trying to make sure ever one out here that has been caught in the blizzard is still ok as it will another 24 before the plows and blowers will get this far ..
I asked him how far are we from Helena ?? Bill said about 75 miles ..Bill asked how my food and fuel was ??I TOLD HIM STILL HAD OVER A HALF A TANK OF FUEL BUT THE FOOD IS GETTING LOW .. Then he said he was really not sure just how long it would take to get the crews up in this sector ..I said I see and I have a women and small child with me her car is over turned just back about 1/4 mile ,,Bill said he seen the car and when he seen no driver that he had been afraid the driver may have dune a stupid thing and started to walk out .
I said no she is here and fine but if you don't mind getting word to her family or at leased the party she was in rout to see ??Bill said he would be happy to help in any way he could ..But when I asked Sandy if she wanted her husband to know that she is fine she promptly told me HELL no ok I said but how about the women you were in rout to meet about this little Angel ?? Sandy again said no that she had changed her mind with a smile of pride in her decision I turned back to Bill and told him she would rather wait tell we were rolling again but thanks anyway ..
As Bill was about to go he said that was a good thing you did for her and the baby and that he wrote down our location as to let the road crews know where we are and to expedite them along ..See yea he yelled as he rode away and with a wave he was gone ..I turned back to look at Sandy and she was crying I told not to cry that every thing is on a new track fore her and the first one was to do what she is now doing ..
Sandy said I don't know what will happen but what ever happens she will have her baby and very thankful that we are now life long friends ..I said you know this has been a HOOT ..Sandy started to laugh so hard I thought she would wet on her self ..I said what is it let me in I could use a good laugh too ..And she said it is you silly that is funny and that she had not herd the term Hoot since the 1970's but she added quickly. I think you are so 70's kind of man and that she believed if all men were froze in time it should be then as men loved there women and most women loved being a women and to just love and stand by her man ..
Well all the laughter is now over and we could see the road crews coming up the road behind us .And do you know I really was not glade as I feel we have really gotten very close and was about to tell Sandy what this time with her and Angel was something I was not sure I wanted to end but she held up her hand and said ..With tears running down her very pretty face and the baby sleeping in her arms she said ..Don't say it I know you are caught up in emotion right now and might say something you don't mean ..Sandy also said you do some thinking long hard thinking before you say anything ..She said that at this time I have not said or done anything you may regret later ..I just sat there with my heart in my hands and realized she may be Wright .....
And with that having been said we were about to roll again and with the end of trip fore Sandy and Angel being only a very short 75 miles away ..I slipped her my cell number and we have been through a lot here and even if it is not to be I want you to have this number as I want to stay in touch as she and Angel will always be deep in my thoughts and warmly in my heart ...Sandy accepted my number and was about to say something but then stopped ..As we rolled in to Helena I think we both were now crying but we new that the adventure was now over ..........
As we rolled into town it was so odd .It was like a person that has been camping fore weeks you know every thing look's so big and clear like every thing is to big fore the place it is setting and the colors are so bright and clean ..It was beautiful but yet the worst site I have ever seen because I knew Sandy could not or will not be anything other then a very good friend ...I told her that I was going to let her have my business bank card and that her and the baby can use it to restart there lives .. I told that I would cover her and the babies needs 4 a month ..
Sandy naturally said that they would be fine that I need not be worried that she knew now where her life must go ..But I insisted that she take it and use it to get started and to please keep me in her life and in her thought's ..Then Sandy looked at me and said ..We will always be nothing but very good friends ever will we ?? I said as beautiful and as sweet of a person she is and that I feel very close to her and Angel but that I am very sure very good friends will be all we can ever be ..As my wife and I may not have the best relation ship just now but we have been married fore 35 very happy years and if it takes us 10 years to work out our problems I truly think it would still be worth the chance of it working ..
At this time I picked up her bags and some of the baby things out of the truck and moved them to a motel room and set them on the floor ,And turned to face her and she stood there with tears streaking her face and then she said this will stay with her only .. I said you know what I decided to tell my wife every thing that has happened and what I intend to do for you and little ms Angel here ..As in my heart of hearts we nor I has done anything to be ashamed of ..And if we are to succeed then I want it to be from the strength of the love we have for each other and not to lie just to keep her .
And with us giving each other a friendly hug and a respectful kiss I walked out and got into my truck and left ..And do you know that was the first time in a year I COULD NOT WAIT TO GET HOME AND TELL MY WIFE THAT I NOT ONLY LOVE HER BUT THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH HER AND WILL BE FORE EVER AND A DAY IF SHE WILL HAVE ME ..This will end this story ps. I decided to name this story ..A SNOW ANGEL IN THE MONTANA PASS