Lost For Good

[acsalinas]

Lost for Good
NAR

I’m still not quite sure
How exactly it is that we met
Maybe it was just by chance
It might have even been fate

Some things are meant to happen
I’m not sure why we were
Possibly you were to save me
To make my love become a blur

I will never say that I was right
I should have never done what I did
It was wrong to lie to him
It was my feelings that I hid

I won’t say that I regret the past
But I lost you both in the end
At least what you and I shared
Was just absolutely splendid

I guess I will never get to know
What we could have been
Our worlds are so far apart
That is a gap we cannot fill

You will be in my thoughts from afar
If only there was another way
If things had turned out different
It would be another time, another day

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You're Love Was Never Real
RMK

Sometimes I still wonder
What it would be like
If only we could talk
And just end the fight

I worry about your family
Are they are alive and well?
I question if they remember me
Because their hearts I failed

Do you remain at a loss
On what you ought to be?
Was it a fabricated lie
To help you escape from me?

Our friends have contacted me
They just wanted to talk
About things I never knew
I was truly just in shock

At first, I was actually curious
Of all the possibilities
But my heart was not healed
I would've been consumed with envy

Ultimately, I made the decision
I would never want to know
All the secrets you had kept
All the things you didn't show

It's crazy how things changed
I would have never guessed
You would become a monster
I thought that you were blessed

You once pledged your love
How could I have believed?
That it was the honest truth
My weak heart you deceived

You couldn't cause me this pain
If your love was truly sincere
Not a pain like this one
A pain only you could cure

You never actually meant it
It's fully out of the question
I don't know how you did it
I should have controlled my passion

Who knew love hurt this much
That I would shed so many tears
The pain pushed me to my past
It resurfaced all my fears

I'm eternally and vastly terrified
Of being bonded with even one more
It will be my fault when it fails
I'll be everlastingly torn

So whenever you find true happiness
I hope you remember all my pain
That it returns in all it's wickedness
And you end up alone and in shame

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It Was Not Just A Chance
CAM

i was a wondering soul
lost by a love once true
i really lost all hope
until i found you

you promised endlessly
there would be no pain
i believed you to be unreal
but gave you a chance anyway

your fingers weaved through mine
the way your soul did through my heart
i became extremely infatuated
but still my love was tart

i built the great china wall
to quarantee my solitude
yet you still found the hold
you thought you were so cute

now, when my lips meet yours
my heart comes to a hault
i remind myself to breath
oh, it's all your fault

the way your strong arms
seem to secure me to your chest
i still long to be closer
i try my very best

when i sleep in your arms
it's like lying with an angel
no one could be safer than i
our bodies so entangled

when i seperate from you
i have pain you can't imagine
to it i must succomb
being alone i cannot fathom

see, it's hard to explain
what you hold over me
it's almost like a drug
don't even release me

my life, without you
is not my life at all
my life requires you
without you, i will fall

i don't know how it happened
you becoming a part of my life
but now you can never leave
i might become your wife

when my eyes are closed
and my ears become deaf
promise you will hold my hand
then i will remain blessed

please don't forget me
while i am away
i wish i could be with you
anything i would pay

remember what we mean
so important to one another
i can't go on with you
in fact, i wouldn't bother

my love for you will remain
through all weather and the storms
thunder does not scare me
i will return to your arms

when i return home to you
have your arms open wide
ready to receive my embrace
ready to be my guide

wherever you are now
will be my new home port
as long as you face can be seen
then i am home forever more.

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The Review: A True Story
RMK

we met almost a year ago
we were both a little shy
you watched my play pool
as i tried not to catch your eye

we went almost three months
with just passer-by hi's
then the bonding started
and we couldn't say good-bye

disaster came out way
and we comforted one another
somehow a new frienship
became something so much more

i laid my head on your chest
as you calmed my tears
you make the world stop
you calmed all my fears

you found out much later
the reason that i cried
i was decided to be with you
even if it cost me my life

i wrote you many letters
about how it would be
i watched your face turn pink
as you read them in front of me

i spoke of long walks
and soft, sweet kisses
many days of laughter
and long, warm embraces

i finally had you convinced
to give us, at least, a try
i fell asleep in your arms
that very next night

you took my cheek in your palm
and you seemed a little shy
when you told me that you loved me
a single tear slipped my eye

a friend invited us to the beach
but when he fell asleep in the sand
i sang my heart out, to tears
as you held me in your hands

i can still feel your fingers
the way they touched my skin
i will never forget that night
i can't be loved like that again

we have spent a lot of hours
together side by side
so this is to review
what we did with our time

we didn't do it very often
but i loved it all the same
falling asleep in the car
is something i wouldn't trade

we had many of nights
at kayla and wayne's
showers were the best
there i had no shame

i never knew that i could be
so comfortable with another
hiding something from you?
i wouldn't even bother

sometimes we got a room
so many things we shared
hugs,kisses, tickles, and love
you showed me that you cared

i can still feel it
your soft, gentle touch
our nude bodies as one
i miss that so much

who would have ever known
someone could be so sweet
a kind hearted man
you would do anything for me

i will have to thank your mom someday
for the man that she's created
with a beautiful heart and mind
who's love has never faded

you started out as K-mart
and became my baby one night
but i would have never guessed
an angel was in my sight

i'm completely honored
to know the favor was returned
i know it was for a reason
it will stay with me forever

i shouldn't let you go
but you have asked me to
although i have no choice
know our love is not through

just please don't forget me
and what i meant to you
i promise with all my heart
my love was always true

when you get into bed at night
i hope you think of me
i will blow you a kiss goodnight
knowing friends is all we can be.