Your Love Was Never Real

[acsalinas]

Sometimes I still wonder
What it would be like
If only we could talk
And just end the fight

I worry about your family
Are they are alive and well?
I question if they remember me
Because their hearts I failed

Do you remain at a loss
On what you ought to be?
Was it a fabricated lie
To help you escape from me?

Our friends have contacted me
They just wanted to talk
About things I never knew
I was truly just in shock

At first, I was actually curious
Of all the possibilities
But my heart was not healed
I would've been consumed with envy

Ultimately, I made the decision
I would never want to know
All the secrets you had kept
All the things you didn't show

It's crazy how things changed
I would have never guessed
You would become a monster
I thought that you were blessed

You once pledged your love
How could I have believed?
That it was the honest truth
My weak heart you deceived

You couldn't cause me this pain
If your love was truly sincere
Not a pain like this one
A pain only you could cure

You never actually meant it
It's fully out of the question
I don't know how you did it
I should have controlled my passion

Who knew love hurt this much
That I would shed so many tears
The pain pushed me to my past
It resurfaced all my fears

I'm eternally and vastly terrified
Of being bonded with even one more
It will be my fault when it fails
I'll be everlastingly torn

So whenever you find true happiness
I hope you remember all my pain
That it returns in all it's wickedness
And you end up alone and in shame[/SIZE]

[laidbackperson]

I really liked it.
Only in last stanza, are you not suggesting that your love also is not real, sort of in agreement of title of the poem' Your Love was never real' .

Addition:

On second reading I think the lines are Ok for if your love is in reality horrid, then you too can not have true feelings for her.

May be if he/she realizes his/her mistake, good old days may return again.

[acsalinas]

no my love was real, but the following pain was also real. and no there is no healing for this one. there is no way to undo what was already been done. and i understand what you mean about the last stanza.