gaslightanthem
02-27-2009, 12:48 AM
I am new to writing and eventually i want to write short stories or even a novel. This is me trying to get the thoughts of a character down on paper. Comments appreciated, thanks.
Who am I? Do you know? Because I certainly don’t. I have no clue who am I. No, I don’t have amnesia, there is nothing wrong with me, physically at least. I’m not even sure if there is anything wrong with me emotionally. I just don’t know who I am, or why I’m here. What am I supposed to do with me life? I’m eighteen years old, and I’m clueless. I’m clueless about everything, about life. I’ve always felt like I was put on this earth to do something great, but then maybe not. I mean what can a below average student do in this world? High school is over, so I guess my glory days are over too. Now, all I’ve got left is old age and death, and I’m scared, I’ll admit it. I need some advice. I want to do something great, I want to succeed, but I think it is to late for me. Is the only option I really have is to work at a grocery store for the rest of my life? Can I not do any better than that? I thought I was supposed to make an impact, I thought God put me here to do something great. But how can this happen when I don’t even know who I am. Aren’t I supposed to know this by know, I’ve had eighteen years to figure this out. I’m so scared. All my friends are going off to college, to make an impact. I want to make an impact, I want to go to college, but I guess God just made me stupid. Can you be made stupid? Or, is stupidity acquired through years of accepted ignorance. Does stupidity and laziness go hand in hand? Maybe so. But what does it matter now? There’s no point for me to change, its to late for me to succeed, I’ve thrown my life away. I wish I could go back in time and change the way I acted. I lived in the moment, and there’s nothing wrong with that, is there? No, there isn’t, but I should have lived in the moment while looking ahead to the future. I should of tried in school, I should have lived in the moment, but also lived for the future. But is it really to late for me? No its not, I can start looking towards the future now. I can stop being ignorant, and go out into the world head on and possess all the knowledge I can find. I can work hard, I can change myself. I can do something great, I can make an impact. I now know who I am, but now its time for me to find out who I am going to be. I’ll be different a being different than this blissfully ignorant person. I now know who I am, and I don’t like it. But I feel a change has occurred, I feel like I have burst out of this cocoon that I called life. I am a new person, filled with ambition, filled with hope. Now all I have to do is implement this change into my life. It starts tomorrow, no it starts now. My newfound thirst for knowledge must be quenched.
Who am I? Do you know? Because I certainly don’t. I have no clue who am I. No, I don’t have amnesia, there is nothing wrong with me, physically at least. I’m not even sure if there is anything wrong with me emotionally. I just don’t know who I am, or why I’m here. What am I supposed to do with me life? I’m eighteen years old, and I’m clueless. I’m clueless about everything, about life. I’ve always felt like I was put on this earth to do something great, but then maybe not. I mean what can a below average student do in this world? High school is over, so I guess my glory days are over too. Now, all I’ve got left is old age and death, and I’m scared, I’ll admit it. I need some advice. I want to do something great, I want to succeed, but I think it is to late for me. Is the only option I really have is to work at a grocery store for the rest of my life? Can I not do any better than that? I thought I was supposed to make an impact, I thought God put me here to do something great. But how can this happen when I don’t even know who I am. Aren’t I supposed to know this by know, I’ve had eighteen years to figure this out. I’m so scared. All my friends are going off to college, to make an impact. I want to make an impact, I want to go to college, but I guess God just made me stupid. Can you be made stupid? Or, is stupidity acquired through years of accepted ignorance. Does stupidity and laziness go hand in hand? Maybe so. But what does it matter now? There’s no point for me to change, its to late for me to succeed, I’ve thrown my life away. I wish I could go back in time and change the way I acted. I lived in the moment, and there’s nothing wrong with that, is there? No, there isn’t, but I should have lived in the moment while looking ahead to the future. I should of tried in school, I should have lived in the moment, but also lived for the future. But is it really to late for me? No its not, I can start looking towards the future now. I can stop being ignorant, and go out into the world head on and possess all the knowledge I can find. I can work hard, I can change myself. I can do something great, I can make an impact. I now know who I am, but now its time for me to find out who I am going to be. I’ll be different a being different than this blissfully ignorant person. I now know who I am, and I don’t like it. But I feel a change has occurred, I feel like I have burst out of this cocoon that I called life. I am a new person, filled with ambition, filled with hope. Now all I have to do is implement this change into my life. It starts tomorrow, no it starts now. My newfound thirst for knowledge must be quenched.